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Photographer

Stephoto Photography

Posts: 20158

Amherst, Massachusetts, US

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:

SPierce Photography wrote:
ive got to have something before march 1st hmm i dont really have any choice i HAVE  to find something

and god i hope so. im ready to give up on doing photography as a career

SPierce Photography wrote:
I'mtrying to stay positive and all that, but i'm not as worried about me as I am about two models I booked (and will be paying) at the end of March. I need to make sure that, no matter what, I have enough for them, but right now it's really hard. I just want to get back on my feet again and show that I really can make it on my own! I have to buy groceries, etc. A job doesn't seem to be panning out... i'm finally going to suck it up and go to the unemployment office on Tuesday, but that won't pay the rent-- or the groceries, or anything aside from that.

SPierce Photography wrote:
*hugs* I just feel so hopeless and useless!

SPierce Photography wrote:
Thanks dude! *hug* I had a really great shoot today, so i'm trying to immerse myself in editing and working on her shots. Brand new model, isn't on MM yet but hopefully will be soon!

hienvy Remember what we talked about. smile

I know dear *hug* to you too- at this rate, I may actually need the help, but I still don't feel right asking. That's a lot. hmm

Feb 15 09 06:37 pm Link

Model

brutal briana

Posts: 28

Raleigh, Illinois, US

Shiggily Weebonk McGee wrote:

I tried 3 times in 1 month when I was 13. Can't say I don't know the feeling.

i tried about a month ago.
and i'm starting to realize life isn't always down.

Feb 15 09 06:38 pm Link

Photographer

Photons 2 Pixels Images

Posts: 17011

Berwick, Pennsylvania, US

brutal briana wrote:

i tried about a month ago.
and i'm starting to realize life isn't always down.

That's one thing that makes me happy when people fail.

Keep thinking that way. Look up. Keep going.

Feb 15 09 07:33 pm Link

Photographer

Photons 2 Pixels Images

Posts: 17011

Berwick, Pennsylvania, US

SPierce Photography wrote:

I know dear *hug* to you too- at this rate, I may actually need the help, but I still don't feel right asking. That's a lot. hmm

One of them is traveling through my area and I thought "Hmmmm...I wonder if I should..." LOL.

Feb 15 09 07:35 pm Link

Photographer

Stephoto Photography

Posts: 20158

Amherst, Massachusetts, US

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:

One of them is traveling through my area and I thought "Hmmmm...I wonder if I should..." LOL.

big_smile

Feb 15 09 07:36 pm Link

Photographer

Star Child

Posts: 39289

Nashville, Tennessee, US

A new day is here with a new victory to be had. Let's battle today to win.

Feb 16 09 05:23 am Link

Model

Solstice Rain

Posts: 13687

Davenport, Florida, US

Thought of the day to help you smile:
Live your live so that when your feet hit the floor in the morning, the world shudders and thinks "Oh shit, he's/she's awake!"

Feb 16 09 05:24 am Link

Photographer

Paul Bryson Photography

Posts: 48041

Hollywood, Florida, US

Kayelless wrote:
A new day is here with a new victory to be had. Let's battle today to win.

*grumble grumble*
*gets coffee*
Good morning! big_smile

Feb 16 09 05:25 am Link

Photographer

Star Child

Posts: 39289

Nashville, Tennessee, US

Solstice Rain wrote:
Thought of the day to help you smile:
Live your live so that when your feet hit the floor in the morning, the world shudders and thinks "Oh shit, he's/she's awake!"

lol

Feb 16 09 05:27 am Link

Photographer

Stephoto Photography

Posts: 20158

Amherst, Massachusetts, US

I have a shoot ALL day today, then we're going to get chinese food afterwards. I'm so excited!

Feb 16 09 05:38 am Link

Photographer

Photons 2 Pixels Images

Posts: 17011

Berwick, Pennsylvania, US

SPierce Photography wrote:
I have a shoot ALL day today, then we're going to get chinese food afterwards. I'm so excited!

Same here. Not sure about the Chinese food, but that's what we normally get when we're done.

Feb 16 09 06:55 am Link

Photographer

Patrick Walberg

Posts: 45354

San Juan Bautista, California, US

Solstice Rain wrote:
Thought of the day to help you smile:
Live your live so that when your feet hit the floor in the morning, the world shudders and thinks "Oh shit, he's/she's awake!"

LOL  ... I like this!  big_smile

Feb 16 09 03:35 pm Link

Photographer

Photons 2 Pixels Images

Posts: 17011

Berwick, Pennsylvania, US

Had a nice shoot today. Got cold. Found some new waterfalls. Good stuff there. Nice, out of the way place for shooting without being interrupted.

Feb 16 09 04:10 pm Link

Photographer

Stephoto Photography

Posts: 20158

Amherst, Massachusetts, US

So absolutely angry, I can't even lie down to go to sleep. I helped a newbie model by taking his picture- the earlier sets were better than the later ones, so I didn't send him any shots from the later. He asked to see them so he could see what worked and what didn't- so i sent him a smaller sized unedited shots. he went and edited them stuck them up on his profile. GGRRRRRR!

Feb 16 09 10:00 pm Link

Photographer

Dark Angel Photography

Posts: 9584

Orlando, Florida, US

I still recall the taste of your tears.
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore.

[Chorus:]
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have

You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.

Come on tell me

[Chorus]

In this place it seems like such a shame.
Though it all looks different now,
I know it's still the same
Everywhere I look you're all I see.
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.

Come on tell me

[Chorus]

I just want something I can never have

Feb 16 09 10:38 pm Link

Photographer

Light Writer

Posts: 18391

Phoenix, Arizona, US

This video made me really happy the other day. I saw it in another thread.

http://www.wherethehellismatt.com/?fbid=opNJb-AyKPU
Click on the 2008 video
It all makes sense at about 53 seconds.

It made me feel like there is good in the world and if everybody just
did a happy-dance together it would be OK.

This is a translation of the lyrics to the music

I will not easily forget
The life that stirs in my soul
Hidden amidst Death
That infinite Life

I hear you in the thunder
A simple tune
A tune to which I will arise (3x)

And in that storm of happiness
As your music plays in your mind
The whole wide world
Dances to your rhythm

I hear you in the thunder
A simple tune
A tune to which I will arise (3x)

Feb 16 09 10:49 pm Link

Photographer

Photons 2 Pixels Images

Posts: 17011

Berwick, Pennsylvania, US

SPierce Photography wrote:
So absolutely angry, I can't even lie down to go to sleep. I helped a newbie model by taking his picture- the earlier sets were better than the later ones, so I didn't send him any shots from the later. He asked to see them so he could see what worked and what didn't- so i sent him a smaller sized unedited shots. he went and edited them stuck them up on his profile. GGRRRRRR!

That is not cool. Have you asked him to take them down?

I'm sorry that happened to you.

Feb 17 09 02:57 am Link

Photographer

Stephoto Photography

Posts: 20158

Amherst, Massachusetts, US

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:

That is not cool. Have you asked him to take them down?

I'm sorry that happened to you.

i sent a strict not so happy email. probably a bad idea, don't think anythings been read yet though. i pray he doesn't cause a problem.

Feb 17 09 04:01 am Link

Model

Solstice Rain

Posts: 13687

Davenport, Florida, US

Fun thought of the day
If you can smile when things go wrong, you have someone in mind to blame.

Feb 17 09 05:01 am Link

Wardrobe Stylist

Dave the design student

Posts: 45198

Detroit, Michigan, US

Someone on my street killed their self last night.  crazy crazy times.

Feb 17 09 05:12 am Link

Photographer

Stephoto Photography

Posts: 20158

Amherst, Massachusetts, US

Dave the design student wrote:
Someone on my street killed their self last night.  crazy crazy times.

Oh no! That's so scary, i'm sorry for your loss (assuming you knew them as well) and his/her family's.

Feb 17 09 05:29 am Link

Wardrobe Stylist

Dave the design student

Posts: 45198

Detroit, Michigan, US

SPierce Photography wrote:

Oh no! That's so scary, i'm sorry for your loss (assuming you knew them as well) and his/her family's.

unfortunately i know who it is; it's a mechanic friend.

Feb 17 09 05:31 am Link

Photographer

Stephoto Photography

Posts: 20158

Amherst, Massachusetts, US

Dave the design student wrote:
unfortunately i know who it is; it's a mechanic friend.

I'm sorry sad *Hug* If you ever need to vent/talk feel free to send me a PM.

Feb 17 09 05:33 am Link

Photographer

Star Child

Posts: 39289

Nashville, Tennessee, US

Dave the design student wrote:

unfortunately i know who it is; it's a mechanic friend.

*sits down on bench next to Dave, passes a root beer*
sometimes there ain't words to say it...

Feb 17 09 09:34 am Link

Photographer

Lawrence Guy

Posts: 17716

San Diego Country Estates, California, US

Kayelless wrote:

*sits down on bench next to Dave, passes a root beer*
sometimes there ain't words to say it...

*sits on bench also, stares at white clouds in a blue sky*

Feb 17 09 02:04 pm Link

Photographer

Fotographia Fantastique

Posts: 17339

White River Junction, Vermont, US

neutral

Feb 17 09 03:04 pm Link

Photographer

Star Child

Posts: 39289

Nashville, Tennessee, US

I thought I was done gettin' my ass kicked.  Thought I was too old and experienced.  Thought I had covered all the bases with my guard steadfast and prepared.

I'm sitting here tonight bewildered and stunned at what has happened.  Still hard to believe.  In full innocence I'm on my knees the blade wedged between my ribs...

I'm not yet down..... but these are the moments that kick in the fall...


           I'm not dead and I will not let this thing kill me.  I will stand.  I will not fall

Feb 17 09 08:19 pm Link

Photographer

Stephoto Photography

Posts: 20158

Amherst, Massachusetts, US

Kayelless wrote:
I thought I was done gettin' my ass kicked.  Thought I was too old and experienced.  Thought I had covered all the bases with my guard steadfast and prepared.

I'm sitting here tonight bewildered and stunned at what has happened.  Still hard to believe.  In full innocence I'm on my knees the blade wedged between my ribs...

I'm not yet down..... but these are the moments that kick in the fall...


           I'm not dead and I will not let this thing kill me.  I will stand.  I will not fall

are you alright??

Feb 18 09 01:32 pm Link

Photographer

Photons 2 Pixels Images

Posts: 17011

Berwick, Pennsylvania, US

Kayelless wrote:
I thought I was done gettin' my ass kicked.  Thought I was too old and experienced.  Thought I had covered all the bases with my guard steadfast and prepared.

I'm sitting here tonight bewildered and stunned at what has happened.  Still hard to believe.  In full innocence I'm on my knees the blade wedged between my ribs...

I'm not yet down..... but these are the moments that kick in the fall...


           I'm not dead and I will not let this thing kill me.  I will stand.  I will not fall

Fight. Keep going. Do not give up.

We are together in this.

Feb 18 09 06:37 pm Link

Photographer

Star Child

Posts: 39289

Nashville, Tennessee, US

*springs up like Chevy Chase*
I'm okay. I'm okay!
hit a rough patch. still in the fight.

Feb 18 09 06:46 pm Link

Photographer

Lawrence Guy

Posts: 17716

San Diego Country Estates, California, US

Kayelless wrote:
*springs up like Chevy Chase*
I'm okay. I'm okay!
hit a rough patch. still in the fight.

What happened?  What hit you?

Feb 18 09 07:05 pm Link

Photographer

Star Child

Posts: 39289

Nashville, Tennessee, US

Lawrence Guy wrote:

What happened?  What hit you?

http://kayelless.net/?p=1580

Feb 18 09 07:38 pm Link

Photographer

Star Child

Posts: 39289

Nashville, Tennessee, US

*sips gulps coffee*

Feb 19 09 05:52 am Link

Photographer

Lawrence Guy

Posts: 17716

San Diego Country Estates, California, US

Kayelless wrote:

http://kayelless.net/?p=1580

Ah.  Yes, sometimes people are a problem, but the problem isn't you.  You'll get past this.  It seems like you are already moving on.  My favorite line from the movie Finding Nemo is "Just keep swimming."  (Side note -- after I got out of the hospital I watched that movie about half a dozen times.  Very inspirational.)

Anyway, if anyone can handle the turbulence of life it would be you.

Guy

Feb 19 09 06:10 am Link

Photographer

Stephoto Photography

Posts: 20158

Amherst, Massachusetts, US

Everyone doing okay this morning??

Feb 19 09 06:26 am Link

Photographer

Star Child

Posts: 39289

Nashville, Tennessee, US

Lawrence Guy wrote:

Ah.  Yes, sometimes people are a problem, but the problem isn't you.  You'll get past this.  It seems like you are already moving on.  My favorite line from the movie Finding Nemo is "Just keep swimming."  (Side note -- after I got out of the hospital I watched that movie about half a dozen times.  Very inspirational.)

Anyway, if anyone can handle the turbulence of life it would be you.

Guy

*swimming*

Feb 19 09 10:37 pm Link

Photographer

Star Child

Posts: 39289

Nashville, Tennessee, US

anybody been in touch with Natasha?

Feb 20 09 06:33 am Link

Photographer

Lawrence Guy

Posts: 17716

San Diego Country Estates, California, US

Kayelless wrote:
anybody been in touch with Natasha?

I've let it slip... I felt like I was pestering her.  I'll get on it again.

Feb 20 09 08:36 am Link

Photographer

Light Writer

Posts: 18391

Phoenix, Arizona, US

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can and
The wisdom to know the difference.

Feb 20 09 08:39 am Link

Photographer

Lawrence Guy

Posts: 17716

San Diego Country Estates, California, US

Kayelless wrote:
anybody been in touch with Natasha?

I've seen her post on other threads today, so we needn't worry about the worst.  She's very indrawn right now.  Keep sending her the love, let her know we're still here for her, but give her her space.

Feb 20 09 01:40 pm Link