Kayelless wrote:

you just had to out do me didn't you?
*runs off crying*

No. The wine was only 4 bucks from the grocery store, and the cookies came from walmart.

Kayelless wrote:
time for work... bleh

Edit: eh, make that home sick.

SPierce Photography wrote:
i'm unemployed again they decided to drop me and go internal instead

Urrgh.  Were you a temp?
I know the economy is what it is, but I truly believe in an always remember when one door closes it's so we can get to the one that's been opened for us.

Kayelless wrote:
Urrgh.  Were you a temp?
I know the economy is what it is, but I truly believe in an always remember when one door closes it's so we can get to the one that's been opened for us.

I was a temp, but this was a different job I had setup after that position ended (like it did on Monday). It seems that every single time I hit a job where I mesh properly with my boss and coworkers, and it's something I really want to do, someone just swoops in and takes it all away. This is the 4th time it's happened to me. I was so excited, i even went and got my hair done yesterday so i could go in this afternoon looking great, and it was all for nothing

SPierce Photography wrote:

I was a temp, but this was a different job I had setup after that position ended (like it did on Monday). It seems that every single time I hit a job where I mesh properly with my boss and coworkers, and it's something I really want to do, someone just swoops in and takes it all away. This is the 4th time it's happened to me. I was so excited, i even went and got my hair done yesterday so i could go in this afternoon looking great, and it was all for nothing

kind of like finding rocks in ones soup..

Kayelless wrote:

kind of like finding rocks in ones soup..

I booked two models at the end of march, and I NEED to find an income/way to pay them. I have to find a way to pay my bills. I have enough to get me through this month, but that's pretty  much it!

SPierce Photography wrote:

I booked two models at the end of march, and I NEED to find an income/way to pay them. I have to find a way to pay my bills. I have enough to get me through this month, but that's pretty  much it!

*prays for needs being met*
they will be met. a new way is coming, so hang tough and most of all.. please don't despair. That's the road to our enemy's camp.

Kayelless wrote:
*prays for needs being met*
they will be met. a new way is coming, so hang tough and most of all.. please don't despair. That's the road to our enemy's camp.

i know, but its so hard sometimes. I think everything will finally be okay and the rug gets pulled out from under me everytime im tired of watching my dreams slip through  my fingers

SPierce Photography wrote:

i know, but its so hard sometimes. I think everything will finally be okay and the rug gets pulled out from under me everytime im tired of watching my dreams slip through  my fingers

that will change... I know it

Kayelless wrote:

that will change... I know it

God I hope so, and soon! *hug*

SPierce Photography wrote:

God I hope so, and soon! *hug*

Obama said it. Change you can believe in.

How much do you usually pay the models and when do you need it by? Also, do you have PayPal?

Dark Angel Photography wrote:
...sometimes it really is better to just burn out than to just fade away...

   dust in the wind baby.......

peace out...       

                Marcus...

uhhhhhhhhh..........

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:
Obama said it. Change you can believe in.

How much do you usually pay the models and when do you need it by? Also, do you have PayPal?

PM coming; and I know everything will work out OK. I just worry.

SPierce Photography wrote:

PM coming; and I know everything will work out OK. I just worry.

yeah, how's that shower downstairs?

Carrie_K wrote:
BUmping this for Thursday morning. Hope everyone is doing grand today. I have some excitment coming up this weekend. So I haz butterflies, but they're all residing in my stomach!

YAAAAAAY!!!!! Good luck with whatever it is.

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:

YAAAAAAY!!!!! Good luck with whatever it is.

It's an art show. My first for my jewelry designs. I've got lots of nervous, positive energy for anyone who needs some.

Natasha240 wrote:
Thank you so much guys, for the calls/pms/texts. I cried, just knowing that you all cared so much to take the time. It really touched me. I'm not doing so good, but I'm still here. I'm just getting very overwhelmed again, I guess. I'm getting sucked down into those negative thoughts, and they keep feeding on themselves, growing. Just knowing that I have you all rooting for me helps. I will try to keep that in my mind when I get deep down into this dark place I am in.

I don't mean to ignore anyone, I just isolate myself hardcore when I feel like this.

I love you all

edit: I just want to add that this now proves that this board helps. I posted here about how bad I am feeling, even while I am trying to hide it from everyone else. Who knows, if I did not have this place to do it, I may have continued to hold it all in, pretending everything was fine.

Natasha,
You know the whole gang is here for you.  I know that you're going through a pretty tough low right now.  You can pull through and out of it.  I know you can.

Gang, she's still having a rough time of it so please stick with Natasha right now.

Kayelless wrote:

Natasha,
You know the whole gang is here for you.  I know that you're going through a pretty tough low right now.  You can pull through and out of it.  I know you can.

Gang, she's still having a rough time of it so please stick with Natasha right now.

Actually, I was just about to text her when I saw you just posted here so I thought I'd read this first.

Kayelless wrote:

Natasha,
You know the whole gang is here for you.  I know that you're going through a pretty tough low right now.  You can pull through and out of it.  I know you can.

Gang, she's still having a rough time of it so please stick with Natasha right now.

Natasha, we all care about you, whether we know you or not. You can PM me and rant and rave. And I'd still huggle you.

Kayelless wrote:

yeah, how's that shower downstairs?

its filling up fairly quickly

Kayelless wrote:

Natasha,
You know the whole gang is here for you.  I know that you're going through a pretty tough low right now.  You can pull through and out of it.  I know you can.

Gang, she's still having a rough time of it so please stick with Natasha right now.

I just sent her a PM

Caperucita Roja wrote:
I can't get a job, I'm hundreds of pounds in debt, I have a stupid amount of work for university.

I don't have money to buy anything, not even food at the moment. I've got tins and pasta ect at least. I have to afford traveling to all these shoots I have planned but I don't know how on earth I'm going to do it.

Most of my friends have moved abroad as part of the course we're doing, I'll be joining them in October but still. I'm really lonely and there aren't exactly many opportunities here for me to go out and make more friends.
The few friends I do still have in North Wales are all, like me, working their asses off so we don't have a lot of time to hang out.

I live alone with a crappy internet connection and almost no phone signal. My parents and brothers are 7-8 hours train/car ride away in Southern England, and the rest of my family are in Spain. I feel really cut off from everyone I love.

I'm only at uni in North Wales because the stupid exam system I was on while in secondary school lost every single exam I had done from the ages of 17-18 and all evidence I had even taken any of these exams.
I lost my place at Cardiff university, I was going to study Spanish and Japanese, they wouldn't take me on "predicted grades" so I had to go with my second choice which is here.

I'm not happy, but i'm half way through finishing this degree and it would be an awful thing to transfer elsewhere at this stage.

I just don't have the motivation to leave the house much anymore. I'm lonely, but at the same time I'm bringing it on myself.

People call me stupid and ungrateful for sometimes complaining about getting to travel so much, but although I love doing it at the same time it's very very hard. My homes are in three different places, and next year I will be travelling between an additional 2 more places.

This is a nice place to go to rant...

Yes it is. I sincerely hope things work out for you. I'm sure it will all be worth it in the end.

Sending hugs your way.

Dark Angel Photography wrote:
...sometimes it really is better to just burn out than to just fade away...

   dust in the wind baby.......

peace out...       

                Marcus...

You will never fade in my eyes.

Kylie Ann wrote:
Seems like this thread has gone on a lot of tangents and I want to bring it back to the suicide topic. Just today my choir teacher informed the class that one of our fellows singers, a senior, hung herself last night and was found this morning. Just 2 days ago we were planning to be in Battle of the Bands at school and planning to hang out over break. Now she won't walk with us at graduation, and pursue her artistic dreams. It's a real shock, and hard to cope with. I've never had someone close to me die before, and it's even harder knowing she took her own life.

In my county there has been so many high school suicides lately. record breaking. In January a popular football player was found dead; it was ruled a suicide today. A few weeks ago a sophomore and a junior ended their own lives. I'm not sure why suicide rates have increased in high schoolers, but it's becoming a serious issue here.

Just had to share.

This is sad news.  I have to question why it is that we are losing our teens to suicide.  I had read an article recently that had identified your area as being one of the highest for such... kind of makes a person wonder what's going on, but we are here today to state it and hope that by keeping a dialog going that one day we may find out.

Kayelless wrote:

This is sad news.  I have to question why it is that we are losing our teens to suicide.  I had read an article recently that had identified your area as being one of the highest for such... kind of makes a person wonder what's going on, but we are here today to state it and hope that by keeping a dialog going that one day we may find out.

I hadn't read that statistic. It really is a tragedy and to strike home like this is horrible. I take a psychology course at my school and my teacher talked to us about all the recent suicides, but there have yet to be any answers.

Kylie Ann wrote:
Seems like this thread has gone on a lot of tangents and I want to bring it back to the suicide topic. Just today my choir teacher informed the class that one of our fellows singers, a senior, hung herself last night and was found this morning. Just 2 days ago we were planning to be in Battle of the Bands at school and planning to hang out over break. Now she won't walk with us at graduation, and pursue her artistic dreams. It's a real shock, and hard to cope with. I've never had someone close to me die before, and it's even harder knowing she took her own life.

In my county there has been so many high school suicides lately. record breaking. In January a popular football player was found dead; it was ruled a suicide today. A few weeks ago a sophomore and a junior ended their own lives. I'm not sure why suicide rates have increased in high schoolers, but it's becoming a serious issue here.

Just had to share.

I'm sorry for your losses, its still got to be tough.

SPierce Photography wrote:
I'm sorry for your losses, its still got to be tough.

It'll be very tough. We set up a memorial today at school and I spent a couple class periods at the memorial. It has only been 1 day and it has already hit so hard. I just saw a story on the news about record breaking suicide rates in the military. Looks like these tragedies are hitting all aspects of our society.

Kylie Ann wrote:

It'll be very tough. We set up a memorial today at school and I spent a couple class periods at the memorial. It has only been 1 day and it has already hit so hard. I just saw a story on the news about record breaking suicide rates in the military. Looks like these tragedies are hitting all aspects of our society.

Yes, I saw the news report on military suicides too. Bad times put people over the edge. It's unfortunate because there is always help available. I know I get close sometimes so I can understand what they're thinking. When you get like that, sometimes you don't want help. You don't want anything.

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:
... When you get like that, sometimes you don't want help. You don't want anything.

It's really a vicious bastard, isn't it.

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:

Yes, I saw the news report on military suicides too. Bad times put people over the edge. It's unfortunate because there is always help available. I know I get close sometimes so I can understand what they're thinking. When you get like that, sometimes you don't want help. You don't want anything.

I understand that. I just wish it could be different.

Kylie Ann wrote:

It'll be very tough. We set up a memorial today at school and I spent a couple class periods at the memorial. It has only been 1 day and it has already hit so hard. I just saw a story on the news about record breaking suicide rates in the military. Looks like these tragedies are hitting all aspects of our society.

None of that is ever easy, or ever really able to be able to "gotten over". Just try to honor them in the best way you can, and don't dwell.. (most of the time) no one would want that. If you ever need to talk, or just vent, send me a PM and i'll be happy to either listen through MM, or i can get you my cell phone number and will be available after my shoot tomorrow

I can't even begin to imagine what it's like to think about suicide and how hard it must be on everyone. (not that I don't, for me mentally it's more of thinking--and knowing-- that i'm going to die early, so i live every day like i might not be here tomorrow)