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SPierce Photography wrote: Thank you! I'm doing okay, it still hasn't fully sunk in. I'm sure it will get more difficult with the funeral and everything. I have a 10-day break from school now so I'll have time to reflect and heal. It is horrible to think about those who feel there is no other option but suicide, and it pains me that she thought she had no other way out. So many people love and adore her. Feb 06 09 09:14 pm Link Hello! This belongs on page one, thank you! Feb 07 09 04:46 pm Link Patrick Walberg wrote: Yes it does!! :] Feb 07 09 05:07 pm Link I feel very low at times too...Can't force myself to do anything, feel angry, anxious, empty, cry a lot... I also feel socially inept in school, (I am in an art school) and the critiques are often hard for me, because I am not self confident as is....But it all goes away when I am in friends, that's why I can't talk about it with them...I only go through all this alone. Feb 07 09 07:35 pm Link Natasha240 wrote: I ended up in ICU 2yrs ago sept 2007 because i tried to kill myself by overdosing myself with my anti-depression pills i was in ICU for 3days i didnt woke up till the 4th day. i don't know if i can do another suicide. i thank my husband(jeff) despite what i did 2yrs ago we are still together. Feb 08 09 12:29 am Link inna l wrote: You should feel free to open up here. You have to get it out to someone....anyone. If you don't feel comfortable talking with it to your friends then by all means come here. Or PM one of us. Just don't try to hold it in and deal on your own. Feb 08 09 02:56 am Link This is a great thread - I just wanted to say that my thoughts are with you all. The OP should be proud that they have started such a helpful and insightful thread. I have been very 'lucky' that I haven't been badly affected by depression - but it is certainly something that lately has been on my mind a bit. I am glad to see that I am not alone. Keep up the great work you are all doing in this post. Its good to see the internet is useful for something important! And the sad reality is that the internet is the only place some of us will ever reach out for help. Ross... Feb 08 09 03:07 am Link don't ever give up Feb 08 09 09:05 pm Link The start of another work week. Today is full of great possibilities so I need to try to find them and allow them to grow their full potential in me. Feb 09 09 06:05 am Link Bumpin. Feb 09 09 01:26 pm Link Well,i find out if i get the photographers internship job this week or not. I hope i got it!! Feb 09 09 01:28 pm Link You know, it's weird. I've beaten my own depression, but now I feel this compulsion to help others. As a result I don't get away from the pain; it's just not my own pain. I've been finding it harder and harder to post on this thread because there are so many people suffering and I want to help them all. But I'm just one person, and an untrained one at that, and I don't know if I do more harm than good. All I can say is I love you all, I understand, and remember that you always have the option to ask for help. Feb 09 09 07:26 pm Link Edit: never mind; i'm calmer now. Feb 09 09 08:37 pm Link Lawrence Guy wrote: thanks for being here. Feb 09 09 10:45 pm Link Yesterday we laid off about 20% of our staff. Some I've worked with over 10 years. To say that yesterday was tough is an understatment. Today would almost HAVE to be better, right? Feb 10 09 04:27 am Link Hey everyone, Just checkin in. Thanks for the emails/texts/calls. I'm not trying to ignore anyone, it's just what I do. If I don't reply, don't think I don't appreciate it, because I do. I hope everyone is hanging in there. Love you guys Feb 10 09 05:00 am Link Lawrence Guy wrote: cosign Feb 10 09 05:03 am Link Natasha240 wrote: Hope you're doing better. *huggles* Feb 10 09 05:04 am Link Natasha240 wrote: Glad to see you around. Hope things are getting better for you. Feb 10 09 03:58 pm Link Another day has come around bringing with you another opportunity to knock this enemy on its ass Feb 11 09 12:26 am Link My schedule has me all fucked up. I usually wake up at 2:30 am to go to work. But on my days off, I still wake up around 3am. I hate waking up at 3am without being able to go to work, because then all I have is time to sit and think. Even while doing something (usually reading or playing video games), it's too quiet and still, and I think very quickly and in depth without wanting to. Then when the sun finally comes up, it feels like night time. Then it's night time all day, but I have no desire to go out... because it feels like night, and I always have to go to bed so damn early. I can't differentiate between 5am and 5pm without looking out the window, and I usually avoid doing that. So today will likely be another of pensive disorientation. Feb 11 09 12:30 am Link Feral Oneiric wrote: perfect opportunity to create art Feb 11 09 05:50 am Link Kayelless wrote: I lack the inspiration for either. Feb 11 09 06:46 am Link Feral Oneiric wrote: throw rocks at the garbage man? Feb 11 09 05:54 pm Link Kayelless wrote: I love it! Each day is another day to kick depression's ass! Feb 11 09 06:53 pm Link Lawrence Guy wrote: that's what I'm talking about. As much as we can suffer we are the one's who have to fight back. When we do we need to bring it.. Feb 11 09 07:09 pm Link Feb 12 09 05:33 am Link Kayelless wrote: bumpin from page 3. Feb 12 09 05:54 pm Link Sometimes is sucks and sometimes we just need a little extra motivation to stay in the game. I wrote a poem today for just such an occasion.. You can see it here on my weblog. It's called "Today I LIVE for myself." I hope you find some motivation in it. Feb 12 09 06:14 pm Link So a friend earlier was doing his best to pick me up from a pretty low spot. He tells me to find something else to live for. To go out and do something that will change me. Climb a mountain, chase a tornado- he says. Those were all things that interested me greatly before. I used to hike and hunt and camp and fish and horseback ride, and then had a million artistic endeavors going on at any given time. I wanted to travel and see new places and try new things and all of that. And I've realized, I don't care about any of that. I just can't see how it can possibly be that interesting anymore. Actually, I'm kind of afraid to do these things now, because it will allow me too much time to think, which is the last thing I need. My brain has been wracked with the same horrible shit for over a year now, and that's all that seems to be left in there when there is no more input to muffle it out. I lack all ambition, motivation, and curiosity. I'm at a loss. What now? Feb 12 09 09:36 pm Link Feral Oneiric wrote: I've always believed that everyone has a reason for being in this world. In my lowest of lows I lost sight of that belief in regards to myself. This past summer when I turned things around I focused on who I really was and what really mattered to me.... there were many depressing days of facing tough answers to tough questions, but I did it because I knew I didn't want to end up useless and dead to the people whom I love and who love me. Feb 13 09 05:23 am Link Hiya guys and girls. No been in this thread for a wee while. Had some pretty low days but since upping my medication and really pushin myself to do things out of my comfort zone, also known as the safe little bubble of my home, i feel a little better about the future. I actually got a call from that job i mentioned i applied for and have an interview next week. Am nervous as hell really the more i sit and think about it, but i so want to be back in the land of the living and think this is a good place to start. Hopefully it will work out and am not rushing things too. Tryin to stay positive though. Anyway, thought it would be cool to show a wee positive thing. Hope all of you folks are doin a bit better too. You are still in my thoughts, and am glad you are all still here talkin things out, it does help. xxxx Feb 13 09 06:05 am Link Teresa Wylie wrote: Good luck with the job! I'll be pulling for ya! Feb 13 09 06:08 am Link Solstice Rain wrote: Cheers hon, appreciate it. Feb 13 09 06:09 am Link bump for importance. Feb 13 09 11:45 am Link Kayelless wrote: I try to find a point, some reason to stick around. Feb 13 09 02:51 pm Link Feral Oneiric wrote: Makes me think there's an underlying reason not too visible. This is the "couples" holiday weekend. Are you hurting from something? Feb 13 09 03:03 pm Link Kayelless wrote: I most certainly am, and have been for the last year. I've gone beyond the point of being able to hurt any more emotionally without it having physical manifestations, and the cure for those isn't exactly healthy. Feb 13 09 03:07 pm Link Feral Oneiric wrote: Two years ago my mother passed away. Last month my sister passed. I've hurt from them, but those things are part of living..... I hope your hurt isn't brought on by someone who shouldn't have brought it.. Feb 13 09 05:42 pm Link Feral Oneiric wrote: Your existence is something that does not need to be justified. You do not need to pass an exam to be entitled to life. You do not need to "measure up" to ANY standard, nor do you need to satisfy anybody but yourself. Accept yourself without conditions. Do not compare yourself to anybody or anything. Your existence is justified by virtue of the fact that you exist. It is as simple as that. Feb 13 09 06:34 pm Link |