Lawrence Guy wrote:
Just breezing by to blow kisses to everyone, except for the guys who get affectionate, yet masculine, hugs.

That made me chuckle

Natasha240 wrote:

It doesnt really matter to me, as long as people can get help when and where they need it. I'm in either way

That's how I see it. I'm just concerned if something needs to be updated and we have no way to do it now. Or if a site link is changed, etc.

I'll set up a webpage and we'll go from there. We don't have to make any decisions right away. Maybe that will work better anyway since I can make it so any of us can update the information. If we start a new thread, only one person can update the OP.

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:

No, you aren't misunderstanding. My idea is that if someone is on the edge and come here for help, there isn't always someone readily available to reply in this thread. Yes, the OP has a lot of good information but for someone looking for info that might be buried in the thread it could be very frustrating. What I'm looking for is a way to keep this listing updated.

Actually, there is another idea I have been thinking about. I could set up a webpage with all the info on it and allow you guys to update that info also. Would that be better? Then we could just keep going as we are here but post another thread with the link to that page and that thread could be locked/stickied. Does that sound better?

I think Natasha just went through all of this last week when we started a thread with Joye's name in it.

And the section of my weblog that contains your blogs will have all of that information with the ability to update and add to if necessary.  You're free to put up a web page, too if you want.  I don't see any harm in it.

Natasha240 wrote:

Eh....so-so I guess. I was talking to my friend today. I noticed I've been feeling down again. I think I need to work up the courage to try to go back to work. I'm starting to feel so useless, I don't know how to explain it. I want to go back to work, I'm just scared, to be honest. I keep thinking to myself, what if I go back, but I can't do it? What if I freak out, or get super depressed again?

That is the story of my life though, the "what ifs". How have you been doing? I've been thinking about you too!

I'm feeling like I'm right on the edge of a crash, just waiting for it to come. Otherwise, I'm OK. Anxious, but OK.

I did my taxes today and I'm getting a refund, so that's good news.

What type of work is it that you do...other than model, that is. I wish I could give you some good sound advice for getting back to work without any problems. I've never been in that situation though. Sorry. The only thing I can say to you is that I'm sure you can do it.

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:

I'm feeling like I'm right on the edge of a crash, just waiting for it to come. Otherwise, I'm OK. Anxious, but OK.

I did my taxes today and I'm getting a refund, so that's good news.

What type of work is it that you do...other than model, that is. I wish I could give you some good sound advice for getting back to work without any problems. I've never been in that situation though. Sorry. The only thing I can say to you is that I'm sure you can do it.

Just finished doing my taxes.  Got a useful refund coming.

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:
I'm feeling like I'm right on the edge of a crash, just waiting for it to come. Otherwise, I'm OK. Anxious, but OK.

I did my taxes today and I'm getting a refund, so that's good news.

What type of work is it that you do...other than model, that is. I wish I could give you some good sound advice for getting back to work without any problems. I've never been in that situation though. Sorry. The only thing I can say to you is that I'm sure you can do it.

I'm a certified veterinary technician. I am feeling very anxious also, I know how you feel.

I'm glad you and kevin are getting refunds. That is always a bright spot. I don't even have to file this year, I made so little from disability. I am right there with you, I feel on the edge myself. I am fighting as hard as I can though so it does not happen.

I'm noticing that I don't know what to do with myself. I have almost zero interest in TV anymore, no interest in the internet (except this thread), I don't want to go outside. I'm just starting to feel apathetic again. Nothing interests me anymore.

I feel so stressed out and guilty because my wife is working her ass off, stressed out from work, stressed about paying bills. I feel like, I should be working. I know, it's not like I'm not working because I'm over her partying everyday.....I'm not working because I am sick. But it's just eating at me, I feel so useless. Like I can't do anything to ease the stress on her. Like I am the cause of it.

Natasha240 wrote:

I'm a certified veterinary technician. I am feeling very anxious also, I know how you feel.

I'm glad you and kevin are getting refunds. That is always a bright spot. I don't even have to file this year, I made so little from disability. I am right there with you, I feel on the edge myself. I am fighting as hard as I can though so it does not happen.

I'm noticing that I don't know what to do with myself. I have almost zero interest in TV anymore, no interest in the internet (except this thread), I don't want to go outside. I'm just starting to feel apathetic again. Nothing interests me anymore.

I feel so stressed out and guilty because my wife is working her ass off, stressed out from work, stressed about paying bills. I feel like, I should be working. I know, it's not like I'm not working because I'm over her partying everyday.....I'm not working because I am sick. But it's just eating at me, I feel so useless. Like I can't do anything to ease the stress on her. Like I am the cause of it.

Do I need to call and talk your ear off again?

Kayelless wrote:

Do I need to call and talk your ear off again?

You didn't talk my ear off, silly! I think I'm ok, I just want to vent some of this stuff out, it helps me to understand how I am feeling. I know that is has been slowly building up again, so maybe I got it out in time, before I reached situation critical. How have you been, I know you have been having a tough time as well.

Natasha240 wrote:

You didn't talk my ear off, silly! I think I'm ok, I just want to vent some of this stuff out, it helps me to understand how I am feeling. I know that is has been slowly building up again, so maybe I got it out in time, before I reached situation critical. How have you been, I know you have been having a tough time as well.

OKay. Good.

Natasha240 wrote:
bump

I'll see your bump and raise you, too.

Natasha240 wrote:

I have awful GI ulcers, so NSAIDS are not really an option, except Tylenol. I smoke, so I can't go on birth control. That is why I take the narcotic painkillers.

I'm sorry. Have you ever considered quitting smoking so, besides avoiding all the obvious health and aesthetic risks, you can try going on the pills? They really helped me a lot, they might do the same for you.

Lawrence Guy wrote:
Bump bump grind.

Okay, what's going on folks?  I've been MIA for a little while because of the twin evils of work and World of Warcraft.  Fortunately today is my last day of work, so I can concentrate on the slacking.

I've also started working on a business plan so I can open my own studio.  There are a lot of unknowns that I need to research, though.

Post some of the good things going on with you, if you can.  I'd like to hear about them.

--Guy

I hope to have a lot of good things to show and tell by this weekend.  Ain't that right, Natasha?

Brandi_Renee wrote:
My g/f has a cuttin problem.. and i try to hard to help her .. and i know she will hate me if i go to anyone about it.. but she is really starting to worry me... sighs..

probably related to an issue of depression. can you get through to her to learn what is triggering it?

Kayelless wrote:
probably related to an issue of depression. can you get through to her to learn what is triggering it?

I've tried over and over.. i mean ive been with the girl for almost 9 months and like anytime we fight.. or she is stressed with school or work.. or her rents get on her about something she goes right to that blade.. and it's really starting to freak me out.. her mom does not know she is gay and has NO idea about me.. but i have been really tempted to call her and ask her to help.. but i have a feeling that will only make it worse.. im so lost and im scared imma lose her

Brandi_Renee wrote:

I've tried over and over.. i mean ive been with the girl for almost 9 months and like anytime we fight.. or she is stressed with school or work.. or her rents get on her about something she goes right to that blade.. and it's really starting to freak me out.. her mom does not know she is gay and has NO idea about me.. but i have been really tempted to call her and ask her to help.. but i have a feeling that will only make it worse.. im so lost and im scared imma lose her

Step one. be a friend first. (they generally make the best heroes)
Step two. make a death oath swearing on the highest that you hold holy that there will be no more fighting. (remove it from your relationship)
Step three. check the OP of this thread for telephone numbers of assistance hotlines to call... call one.

The number one thing I find that drags me down more than anything is the lack of understanding support.
Don't worry about being a lover.  Be a friend.  Be supportive.  Be there for her 24/7 as a friend.  This is very important.

Brandi_Renee wrote:

I've tried over and over.. i mean ive been with the girl for almost 9 months and like anytime we fight.. or she is stressed with school or work.. or her rents get on her about something she goes right to that blade.. and it's really starting to freak me out.. her mom does not know she is gay and has NO idea about me.. but i have been really tempted to call her and ask her to help.. but i have a feeling that will only make it worse.. im so lost and im scared imma lose her

Is she in treatment of any kind? Does she she a therapist? I would advise her to get treatment, to talk to a professional about why she does it, and to learn other ways to cope. I speak from experience as a cutter.

Going to her mom isnt going to help anything. Unless she is a minor, her mom can't do anything about it. And outing someone can be very traumatic. If you feel you must bring this to moms attention, there is no reason you have to state that you are her gf, can't you just say you are a close friend and are worried about her?

I feel for you, I really do. But trying to "cure" her on your own in only going to make YOU sick. Be there for her, listen to her, and encourage her to seek professional help....that is my advice to you.

Kayelless wrote:

I hope to have a lot of good things to show and tell by this weekend.  Ain't that right, Natasha?

Kayelless wrote:
Never give up.

Just want to add my own mantra:

"There's always a second option."

By that I mean, you can always call for help.

Natasha240 wrote:
Where is everyone?

Lovely Laurie wrote:
Ya I'm going to go to the doctor today because I think I've been dealing with depression for a long time.

That's a big step in the right direction, you made a good decision.

Sophie Darling wrote:

That's a big step in the right direction, you made a good decision.

Ya it's been getting really bad lately so I really do need to go.

Dee wrote:
I am going to lose it...........I know I need to get back to the doctors and get some meds...but i just alwqys seem to find some excuse..or i feel fine at the moment so i dont need them...but I am going to rip my hair out over these teenage kids...........my oldest is 16 and she keeps getting into trouble at school......she is just disrespectful and I am at a loss for what to do with her anymore......She has been in the hospital she has been to juvie more than once...she refuses to listen to people at school...she refuses to go to bed when I tell her...she has run away many times.......I am just at a loss....

I feel like a failure...but i know I have done my best with her....we have family night 2 times a week with my parents one night and my husbands parents another night...EVERY week...we always eat dinner together...I try to get her to talk to me and she wont....she lies iike there is no tomorrow...she has been in therapy for a year on meds for over a year and I am just at the end of my rope..I dont know what else to do to try to get her back.......she is just hateful to her younger sister.....she flies off the handle with every little disagreement........We walk on eggshells around here because we dont want to upset her and make everyone in the houses life a living hell........i get a call almost every day from her school...she skipped class again, she has bic yet again.....I AM SOOOOOO CONFUSED...

Not only that but I have to live with my life and the failure I have become.......my studio closed....I am too scared to get out of the house and talk to people....I cant talk on the phone..........I am too scared to call someone and talk because i feel like i am whining...

I dont even know why I am typing this here....I feel like there is no end in sight for this misery of teenagers........ i want to help her so bad but i just dont know how.........I want to feel alive again..I just want to be able to breathe...... it is so hard having children....and i just went and had another one who is gonna be 5 months old.......i want those days back with my first baby girl but she doesnt want anything to do with me......

I am rambling...i will go cry to myself until I have to pick her up in 25 minutes...

If the medicine that your doctor prescribes helps you then you've got to go get them no matter what.
Stop blaming yourself because things don't work out. Not everything does. 
About your daughter...... she is a rebellious teenager (with issues it sounds like). It's not your job to "make" her do anything.  Although still very young she has reached that age where you forcing her to conform is just going to alienate her more.
That's the best I can offer on her.... I'm not a parent and have never been one.  Teenagers are one of the most difficult things to be and raise,
but
there is not one problem in this world that doesn't have an answer. Please don't give in to frustration while searching for it..... that's what the enemy wants you to do.
You want to live and so does your daughter... that is a common goal. Think on it.
Writing here is just fine.  That's why this thread exists.