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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
morning all feeling accomplished...very close to getting my car fixed (rather than getting a whole new car) and it's payday
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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
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Faith EnFire wrote: morning all feeling accomplished...very close to getting my car fixed (rather than getting a whole new car) and it's payday Yay! ![smile](//assets.modelmayhem.com/images/smilies/smile.png)
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
Faith EnFire wrote: morning all feeling accomplished...very close to getting my car fixed (rather than getting a whole new car) and it's payday I gotta go outside in the rain and replace a fuel filter on my car. Seems like a minor issue, but it has been causing me big problems. Hoping this solves them. And it's payday!
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Star Child wrote:
I gotta go outside in the rain and replace a fuel filter on my car. Seems like a minor issue, but it has been causing me big problems. Hoping this solves them. And it's payday! if i could pull my engine and put in a new one that would save me a lot time but.... wohoo for paydays
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
dang, I'm feeling creative but don't know how is it model me, photographer me, hair me, makeup me. all three and what do I want to express...don't know. great now i have no focus at work
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
Faith EnFire wrote: dang, I'm feeling creative but don't know how is it model me, photographer me, hair me, makeup me. all three and what do I want to express...don't know. great now i have no focus at work That is the sign of a truly creative soul. You're hungry, but you don't know just what for. I'm off to work. Long shifts for the next three days
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Star Child wrote: That is the sign of a truly creative soul. You're hungry, but you don't know just what for. I'm off to work. Long shifts for the next three days have fun at work I'm going to gnaw my creative arm off till i figure out what I need to do
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11771
Wilmington, Delaware, US
Hello my suicide and violence family. Today sucked for me. Therapy was a train wreck and everything in my life is in ruin. Any good thoughts or prayers will be so appreciated. I have a huge problem to find an answer to but its not something I want to make public, I'm too ashamed. If anyone feels like they are good at problem solving please feel free to PM me and I'll let you know my deal and look forward to your ideas. Thanks Guys, I love you all! Tim
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Lawrence Guy
Posts: 17716
San Diego Country Estates, California, US
Tim Little Photography wrote: Hello my suicide and violence family. Today sucked for me. Therapy was a train wreck and everything in my life is in ruin. Any good thoughts or prayers will be so appreciated. I have a huge problem to find an answer to but its not something I want to make public, I'm too ashamed. If anyone feels like they are good at problem solving please feel free to PM me and I'll let you know my deal and look forward to your ideas. Thanks Guys, I love you all! Tim I'd love to send you a PM, but I've learned that I'm not so good at getting into the mechanics of specific problems. General problems I can help with, but anything else I strongly urge that you restrict yourself to professionals. My only piece of advice: shame is an emotion that prevents healing. Learning how to beat feelings of shame is one of the most useful emotional-control skills you can learn. Please keep posting even if you don't feel you can share. We're here for you.
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11771
Wilmington, Delaware, US
Lawrence Guy wrote: I'd love to send you a PM, but I've learned that I'm not so good at getting into the mechanics of specific problems. General problems I can help with, but anything else I strongly urge that you restrict yourself to professionals. My only piece of advice: shame is an emotion that prevents healing. Learning how to beat feelings of shame is one of the most useful emotional-control skills you can learn. Please keep posting even if you don't feel you can share. We're here for you. Thank you Lawrence. I'm working all the resources I can. I appreciate your kind concern my friend.
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A S Photography
Posts: 1222
Newark, Delaware, US
Tim Little Photography wrote: Hello my suicide and violence family. Today sucked for me. Therapy was a train wreck and everything in my life is in ruin. Any good thoughts or prayers will be so appreciated. Sorry to hear that. Good luck.
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Tim Little Photography wrote: Hello my suicide and violence family. Today sucked for me. Therapy was a train wreck and everything in my life is in ruin. Any good thoughts or prayers will be so appreciated. I have a huge problem to find an answer to but its not something I want to make public, I'm too ashamed. If anyone feels like they are good at problem solving please feel free to PM me and I'll let you know my deal and look forward to your ideas. Thanks Guys, I love you all! Tim hey, I do like problem solving, but I don't know how good I am at it sorry things sucked, sorry that therapy didn't go well... Sometimes when I have a problem and i'm praying on it, I find i'm not listening. just talking. Don't let God-as I understand him-to get a word in edgewise. have you considered just a little meditating-long shower/bath, walk outside just to clear your head. God sometimes talks to me thru ice cream Pm if you want some advice and I'll see what i can do. but I won't be able to get to it till tomorrow morning. Hug Love and Prayers
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
just stopped in to see how everyone was doing *blush* thanks tim
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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
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Mornin. Trying to hang in there. It's a breathing day for me. ![neutral](//assets.modelmayhem.com/images/smilies/neutral.png)
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Lawrence Guy
Posts: 17716
San Diego Country Estates, California, US
E P O N A wrote: Mornin. Trying to hang in there. It's a breathing day for me. ![neutral](//assets.modelmayhem.com/images/smilies/neutral.png) *hug*
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
E P O N A wrote: Mornin. Trying to hang in there. It's a breathing day for me. ![neutral](//assets.modelmayhem.com/images/smilies/neutral.png) It's okay. Give yourself praise for small steps.
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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
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Lawrence Guy wrote: *hug* Thanks. I *really* need it right now.
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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
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Star Child wrote: It's okay. Give yourself praise for small steps. I'm slowly learning this, and I can't thank y'all enough for teaching me this. (hug)
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
E P O N A wrote: Thanks. I *really* need it right now. *huggs* me too
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Lawrence Guy
Posts: 17716
San Diego Country Estates, California, US
E P O N A wrote: Thanks. I *really* need it right now. If you want to talk in person I'm available tomorrow and for most of the week. Today I already have plans that are difficult to get out of.
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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
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Star Child wrote: *huggs* me too ((hugs))
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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
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Lawrence Guy wrote: If you want to talk in person I'm available tomorrow and for most of the week. Today I already have plans that are difficult to get out of. Yea, we gotta make a date for you to come over soon.
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Lawrence Guy
Posts: 17716
San Diego Country Estates, California, US
E P O N A wrote: Yea, we gotta make a date for you to come over soon. I'm good most days except Thursdays and Saturdays. PM me?
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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
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Lawrence Guy wrote: I'm good most days except Thursdays and Saturdays. PM me? Will do now.
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11771
Wilmington, Delaware, US
Hi family! Thank you all for your kind words to me during this terrible time. I hate to admit that suicide was even close to the back of my mind yesterday but I have to be honest to get better. I posted in the MM Market to try and fix my problem. Would you please send prayers or just good thoughts to those who are buying my services. I love you all, Tim
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
hey all hugs all the way around. looks like everyone needs one and don't underestimate the difficulty of breathing. it's very complex. everything has to work in just the right order so I had the creative bug. wasn't sure what to do. and it certainly didn't come out the way I wanted but thought I'd share the results. reach by Moyer566, on Flickr this one was just for fun firelight by Moyer566, on Flickr
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11771
Wilmington, Delaware, US
Faith EnFire wrote: hey all hugs all the way around. looks like everyone needs one and don't underestimate the difficulty of breathing. it's very complex. everything has to work in just the right order so I had the creative bug. wasn't sure what to do. and it certainly didn't come out the way I wanted but thought I'd share the results.
reach by Moyer566, on Flickr this one was just for fun
firelight by Moyer566, on Flickr These are as awesome as you are Faith. Thank you for posting them!
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
morning I liked doing the self portraits. no tripod, just a delay and a chair this weekend was alright but it was nice not to be at work hope everyone had a good weekend
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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
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Tim Little Photography wrote: Hi family! Thank you all for your kind words to me during this terrible time. I hate to admit that suicide was even close to the back of my mind yesterday but I have to be honest to get better. I posted in the MM Market to try and fix my problem. Would you please send prayers or just good thoughts to those who are buying my services. I love you all, Tim Link? Also, (((hugs)))
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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
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Faith EnFire wrote: hey all hugs all the way around. looks like everyone needs one and don't underestimate the difficulty of breathing. it's very complex. everything has to work in just the right order so I had the creative bug. wasn't sure what to do. and it certainly didn't come out the way I wanted but thought I'd share the results.
reach by Moyer566, on Flickr this one was just for fun
firelight by Moyer566, on Flickr Love the first one with the passion of 1,000 burning suns.
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
E P O N A wrote: Love the first one with the passion of 1,000 burning suns. It's my favorite too. Bf likes my avi and my friends all like the fire one so....
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Phane
Posts: 2063
Rockville, Maryland, US
Am going to say I almost did it Sunday morning. Then a friend called
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Lawrence Guy
Posts: 17716
San Diego Country Estates, California, US
Phane wrote: Am going to say I almost did it Sunday morning. Then a friend called I'm glad you were saved by the bell, so to speak. I also hoped you talked about it with people you trust, and I *especially* hope you're scheduling an appointment with competent medical people. I've been to the end of myself, and only the fact that I had promised to call for help when things got dire saved my life. The doctors and therapists worked a complete miracle, and for three years now I've been able to beat back the darkness. Please believe that real help is available, and promise to call for that help if you're ever again in the same situation as you were on Sunday. The Contract for Survival is a proven lifesaver, and all it takes is a commitment to call for help. If you don't know who to call, 911 works. We're here for you. Don't hesitate to PM me or anyone else who offers. It's not an annoyance to us - we take this utterly seriously.
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11771
Wilmington, Delaware, US
Phane wrote: Am going to say I almost did it Sunday morning. Then a friend called Thank goodness for friends! How are you now Phane? I can't sleep, wanna talk about it? Feel free to PM me. If you want to talk by phone just say so in the pm and i can send you my number. The important thing Phane, and damn if i didnt learn this in my own crisis, is that suicide is forever, it is eternal, and usually our problems are huge but can be worked through. People care here Phane. We dont judge. I'll be here for a while, pm me if you want. I'm concerned for you. Tim
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Phane
Posts: 2063
Rockville, Maryland, US
Lawrence Guy wrote: I'm glad you were saved by the bell, so to speak. I also hoped you talked about it with people you trust, and I *especially* hope you're scheduling an appointment with competent medical people. I've been to the end of myself, and only the fact that I had promised to call for help when things got dire saved my life. The doctors and therapists worked a complete miracle, and for three years now I've been able to beat back the darkness. Please believe that real help is available, and promise to call for that help if you're ever again in the same situation as you were on Sunday. The Contract for Survival is a proven lifesaver, and all it takes is a commitment to call for help. If you don't know who to call, 911 works. We're here for you. Don't hesitate to PM me or anyone else who offers. It's not an annoyance to us - we take this utterly seriously. Am trying to change the way I think I just really hate myself but I made plenty of phone calls since then I have just had a very hard emotional year I need to breath and let go
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Phane
Posts: 2063
Rockville, Maryland, US
Tim Little Photography wrote: Thank goodness for friends! How are you now Phane? I can't sleep, wanna talk about it? Feel free to PM me. If you want to talk by phone just say so in the pm and i can send you my number. The important thing Phane, and damn if i didnt learn this in my own crisis, is that suicide is forever, it is eternal, and usually our problems are huge but can be worked through. People care here Phane. We dont judge. I'll be here for a while, pm me if you want. I'm concerned for you. Tim Better then Sunday how are you doing? am so glad people care about people or Life would be a hard place its what makes me happy to be their for people
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Lawrence Guy
Posts: 17716
San Diego Country Estates, California, US
Phane wrote: Am trying to change the way I think I just really hate myself but I made plenty of phone calls since then I have just had a very hard emotional year I need to breath and let go Breathing is good. Talking is very good. Sounds like you're responding well. I promise that this is the last time I say this (I don't want to be a nag), but do see a therapist. There's no shame in it and they can show you SO many ways to breath. I went through a lot of self-hatred myself. Still do, in fact, but I've learned to ignore that voice, or at least sneer at it. Took some time, I will admit. *hug* Feeling shitty makes you feel pretty shitty, doesn't it?
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