E P O N A wrote:

I'm not a doctor. I just wanted to clarify that.
With that being said, if there is no way to get your pills and a withdrawal is going to happen, please PM me for some coping tips for the withdrawal.

I will thank you. The company that makes cymbalta is actually located here and they are suppose to have a "if you cant afford" program. There are also two hospitals. I'll find them somehow. Or I'll figure out how to get the money for the script. Its well over a hundred bucks for Cymbalta but it has turned my life around. Thank you for helping me cope and get my head back together.

Lawrence Guy wrote:

Therapists are hit or miss propositions.  I've been through at least a dozen.  Don't give up hope - the right therapist is out there.  Have the courage to leave the lousy ones that do more harm than good.  Your comfort level with the therapist is probably the key element to make therapy work.  Find a therapist that you have faith in (and be willing to give faith, be willing to judge each new therapist fairly) and you should do pretty well.

Thank you very much Lawrence, that is very good advice and that is just what I'm going to do!

Chris Rifkin wrote:

the "cancer" is back and strong as ever

I just can't see how things will ever change despite all that I'm doing to change things....
I can't see how anyone worthwhile to me would ever want a guy like me in their life with all the negatives I have,even though IMO i have way mroe positives...

Chris I used to think that way. I was burned badly as a kid. 68 percent of my body had third degree burns. So I am disfigured like you cant believe. I also have a mad collection of medical problems. And there is a woman who loves me just like I am. I would not have believe it a year ago. I felt just like you do. Chris, ther are wonderful women who look right past that stuff and only want a man with a good heart who will love and respect them. Now is there anything I can do for you my friend. Please feel free to private message me if you want to unload some of your troubles. That's what I'm here for. Take care my friend.

Tim

Star Child wrote:
Long weekend. Long week last week. Lots of changes and I had a need to go sit inside my shell for a while.

New week with new challenges to overcome one by one.  Gonna knock a few down.

sounds good. break them down one at a time

Lawrence Guy wrote:
FINALLY have an appointment with a new therapist.  I think it's been about three months since my last one.  Damn Westchester County for closing the public clinics and dumping thousands of new patients on other counties that can't handle the sudden influx!

appointments are good. hope it goes well

Lawrence Guy wrote:
FINALLY have an appointment with a new therapist.  I think it's been about three months since my last one.  Damn Westchester County for closing the public clinics and dumping thousands of new patients on other counties that can't handle the sudden influx!

Progress and small victories

Faith EnFire wrote:
Morning all

You feel big.. I wish that those were my measurements

The photographers I work with are great with me. They understand I have my insecurities. Even if I feel fat, short and stumpy after the shoot, the photographers do a good job of finding "beneficial" images for me to use

I hope you can find some photographers like that too

You and I have plans.  We just have to set the date.

Star Child wrote:

You and I have plans.  We just have to set the date.

We just need to figure out which one of us is best able to travel. though I think you'd like it here
and you can meet bob. He'll show you the peace of the lake early in the morning
http://www.flickr.com/photos/rjiphotogr … 959746815/

Faith EnFire wrote:
morning all

Hello.

Star Child wrote:

You and I have plans.  We just have to set the date.

So, when are you both coming HERE. Hrm?

E P O N A wrote:

So, when are you both coming HERE. Hrm?

uhm.. still haven't finalized those plans, yet.

E P O N A wrote:

So, when are you both coming HERE. Hrm?

when he swings thru and gets me

Faith EnFire wrote:

when he swings thru and gets me

Right. Thank you for the reminder.

Star Child wrote:
Really wanting to shoot something meaningful today.  *sigh*

sounds like a good time for selfportraits

Star Child wrote:
Really wanting to shoot something meaningful today.  *sigh*

No motivation or....?

Star Child wrote:

uhm.. still haven't finalized those plans, yet.

Get crack-a-lackin'

Faith EnFire wrote:
sounds like a good time for selfportraits

I pretty much hate the process of taking self pics

E P O N A wrote:
No motivation or....?

Today's biggest factor is no time to do so, but even if those other matters which require attention today weren't on tap I would still need to overcome the issues of not having the right subject(s) to shoot and/or conditions to do so.
i.e. I would so love to be able to create something with Faith right now because we probably could come up with something that would properly express what I'm feeling at this moment; however I couldn't do the same using just some random stranger or object.

A couple of weeks ago I got to go out and shoot.  It was way fun and a huge relief.  Shot pretty much from the hip, but really didn't go for anything deep or strong.  Today, I don't want to just shoot anything.  I want to shoot something special to my creativity.

Faith EnFire wrote:
good morning everyone. hope everyone is enjoying their thurs morning

Enjoying coffee.

E P O N A wrote:

Enjoying coffee.

just finished my cup

Chris Rifkin wrote:

the "cancer" is back and strong as ever

I just can't see how things will ever change despite all that I'm doing to change things....
I can't see how anyone worthwhile to me would ever want a guy like me in their life with all the negatives I have,even though IMO i have way mroe positives...

I didn't read this entire thread and only landed on the last page here because I saw a suicide yesterday.

Ask yourself if you are looking for someone to solve all the pain in your younger years or if you want someone to share your life.

You need to love yourself.
Someone who may save you from loneliness may sound poetic but in reality it's called co-dependency.

When people are 'whole' and emotionally healthy, they can safely depend on each other and co-exist emotionally/spiritually, etc.

Two different things.

I'm no P.H.D. but I know what I'm talking about.

Faith EnFire wrote:
considering going for a second. it's so warm and happy filled

I need to get my behind off this chair

E P O N A wrote:

Enjoying coffee.

Same to you and everyone.

Still drinking mine:)

E P O N A wrote:
So, when are you both coming HERE. Hrm?

Faith EnFire wrote:
when he swings thru and gets me

What about Labor Day weekend?

Star Child wrote:

E P O N A wrote:
So, when are you both coming HERE. Hrm?

What about Labor Day weekend?

no -to be honest, I won't even be able to dream about traveling until next year.

but i want to come

Faith EnFire wrote:

no -to be honest, I won't even be able to dream about traveling until next year.

but i want to come

I didn't say this year

Star Child wrote:

I didn't say this year