Star Child wrote:
Starting week off with a little cat humor
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aP3gzee1 … ture=share

Stressed a lot over the weekend. Still trying to stay sane.

Faith EnFire wrote:

Star Child wrote:
After a fitful night of sometimes sleep, sometimes not my cats got me up way too early.  I'm in need of a little more sleep and then I can up and challenge Tuesday.

Wishing you blessings.

sometimes not my cats

Faith EnFire wrote:

Hah. Loved waking up to that.

E P O N A wrote:
So I went to the ENT doctor yesterday. I need hearing aids, and that's no shocker, really. I'm just not looking forward to it in the sense that people mistake hard of hearing for stupid.
My Father lost his hearing in the war. One ear totally gone, the other was helped with a hearing aid. I'll never forget one of my friends spoke up in that "are you slow" voice. It's infuriating.
Looking forward to being able to use the phone again though.
I don't want to talk about the rest of the appointment with the other stuff.



7 more days until the new psy doctor. It can't come soon enough. I feel myself....losing reality, if that makes sense. More and more I feel like giving up, but I have to grip so hard to not feel that way.
I want to feel like ME again.

hug
loss of hearing is hard too, but hearing aides are smaller and better than they used to be. so maybe it won't be too bad

Faith EnFire wrote:

hug
loss of hearing is hard too, but hearing aides are smaller and better than they used to be. so maybe it won't be too bad

That's good to hear

Faith EnFire wrote:
argh having a hard time. life is seeming overwhelming
but I'm here and tomorrow is pay day so that's nice

did i miss anything

*hugs*

Star Child wrote:
(late) morning huggs and coffee.
And as tradition, I've got one cat resting on my leg and the other on his tray behind me.

Kitties! I love my kitty support group.

Faith EnFire wrote:
argh having a hard time. life is seeming overwhelming
but I'm here and tomorrow is pay day so that's nice

did i miss anything

Oh, that overwhelming feeling.  Know it well, do I.  So many times when it comes on me I get functionally paralyzed.
*hugg*

Faith EnFire wrote:
i miss my furball. its amazing how much comfort they can bring us

Do they ever. My two were the main reason I managed to fight off the suicide monster back in November.  The biggest thing that kept me here was the concern for who would take care of them if I was gone.  I'm so thankful for my babies.

ArunaAdvanee wrote:

What's up everyone? I'm back for a short visit.

When I google myself, this post comes up.

Glad to see the MM staff is right on top of things.

Faith EnFire wrote:
I'm refusing to give into the duck and cover response. but I just feel like I can never get past survival with pulling all of the strings of my life together into something that I need it to be. I want to live, not to survive

Yeah, that just surviving thing is so not good.

Star Child wrote:
*yawn*

Although it's Friday it's the start of my five day work week and I stayed up way too late last night. *sleepy head*

however

I did get to shoot yesterday.

well happy mondya
and yay

Nylon wrote:
Help i just need to talk to someone....I'm not suicidal but nor am I a victim of violence but someone I know is going through alot of mental trauma from her family. What's worst is that person whom I love and care about alot is pushing me away. I don't even know where to begin....

One of the hardest lessons I've learned is that a person who doesn't want help can't be helped, and if you try to force the issue they will resent you.  The only thing you can really do is say - once - that you're there for them whenever they need you, and the choice is theirs.  That's it.  But if you say it, you have to mean it, as in drop-whatever-you-are-doing-and-be-there if your friend DOES ask.

Star Child wrote:
*weekend wave*
small steps forward, even baby small steps, are a good thing. don't give up

I say that to myself every morning.

E P O N A wrote:

I say that to myself every morning.

That's awesome news. Personal affirmations are our reminders. They help us in the fight and provide focus points for balance. Keep up the great work!

Faith EnFire wrote:
today and maybe for this week I'm trying to remember
"Patience for the things that take time"

I'll be keeping that in mind!

Faith EnFire wrote:
Hi Tim
I used to work for an insurance company and I've had to deal with dr.s like that before

is it possible to send someone over to the surgeon to get the docs and then you can fax/email the docs to the insurance

Otherwise all you can do is keep the car people updated to the situation.

Sorry that this is happening. Financial issues are so emotional draining

Thank you for the inside info Faith. I appreciate your concern!

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Hi everyone,
I need to reach out to my beloved MM friends to vent and try to get some pain off my chest. Maybe even find a way to get out of this jam. For those of you who don't know me my name is Tim. When I was 12 I was burned very badly with 67% of my body receiving 3rd degree burns. It was horrible as you can imagine. There have been ongoing medical problems my whole life but about 18 months ago it all came together and made sense when I was diagnoised with Post Tramatic Stress Disorder and Major Chronic Depression at a severe level. I'm getting good effective treatment now and I've had the pleasure to have private conversations with several MM members who found themselves struggling with depression and anxiety.

Well today I'm having a really hard time of it. I'm on disabilty for the time being so I'm making about $800 a month. My car payment is late and for lack of $148.00 I am in danger of having it reposessed. I'm not at my full payment amount because the surgeon who did the last skin graf on my leg has ignored three request from the insurance company to provide them with the information they need.

So here it is, a little after 8am and I am in a bad emotional place. The depression is eating me alive and I'm really tired of the pain. I could really use a lot of encouragment and ideas from my MM friends. I'm sorry to bother ya'll, I try to be the one that  reaches out to help in these threads but today I need some support and encouragment. Thanks y'all, I love everyone of you!

Tim
BTW, as bad as it is I want to point out that I am not going to injure myself or anyone else. I may cuss some doctor out but that will be it.

Just so you know, you are never EVER bothering anyone here.

E P O N A wrote:

Just so you know, you are never EVER bothering anyone here.

Natasha240 wrote:
I just went through a bad spell of not being able to sleep, even with sleep aids. I went three days with three hours of sleep a night. On the last day of that, Danielle and I had a pretty bad fight, and she said some very hurtful things. I know she didn't mean it, and she feels like shit, but it really played on my insecurites, and I can't stop thinking about it.

I slept like a corpse for 14 hours yesterday night. I woke up this am, and it's all I can do to not cry. I don't know how to get over what she said. If it was an isolated incident, I think it'd be easier. But through the years, she has said it a few other times when she's angry. So even though she apologied, and I know she feels bad, I'm convinced that she really thinks this, and my self esteem and feeling of self worth are pretty low right now. I hate who I am.

*huggs*