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Photons 2 Pixels Images
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Berwick, Pennsylvania, US
Natasha240 wrote:
Has anyone heard from Mike lately? 
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
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Photons 2 Pixels Images
Posts: 17011
Berwick, Pennsylvania, US
When I try to tell you I'm depressed, please don't: * Tell me how I should (not) conduct myself. * Tell me how I should (not) act. * Tell me what I should (not) be thinking. * Tell me what I should (not) be doing. * Tell me what I should (not) be feeling. It doesn't help me. It only makes it worse. People can really suck. It's why I avoid my family. I either get ignored completely or I get the above. I'm the youngest and no one wants to acknowledge that I'm a grown adult who is fully capable of taking care of my self and making my own decisions and either succeeding or failing on my own terms. I guess it helps them cope with getting older and things not being like the used to be. They don't wanna let go of the past. But, damn it, it's got me all fucked up in the process! So now you all know where my feelings of inferiority come from. I've been told my whole childhood that I'm not capable, I can't do, I'm not good enough, I'm not smart enough. Eventually that shit just sticks. It's hard to shake out. I am so fucked up. Sorry guys/gals. It all just came out. 
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Aruna
Posts: 2162
Naperville, Illinois, US
Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:
And now I know your name. 
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:
When I try to tell you I'm depressed, please don't:
* Tell me how I should (not) conduct myself.
* Tell me how I should (not) act.
* Tell me what I should (not) be thinking.
* Tell me what I should (not) be doing.
* Tell me what I should (not) be feeling.
It doesn't help me. It only makes it worse.
People can really suck. It's why I avoid my family. I either get ignored completely or I get the above. I'm the youngest and no one wants to acknowledge that I'm a grown adult who is fully capable of taking care of my self and making my own decisions and either succeeding or failing on my own terms. I guess it helps them cope with getting older and things not being like the used to be. They don't wanna let go of the past. But, damn it, it's got me all fucked up in the process!
So now you all know where my feelings of inferiority come from. I've been told my whole childhood that I'm not capable, I can't do, I'm not good enough, I'm not smart enough. Eventually that shit just sticks. It's hard to shake out.
I am so fucked up.
Sorry guys/gals. It all just came out. It's alright, buddy. You got to identify your enemy before you can fight it.
as for me, I'm goin' underground for a bit. Gotta work some things out. I'll be okay and please know that my thoughts and prayers are with y'all everyday.
The Hurting
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
After further deliberation and talking the matter over with my sister I'm moving forward with the idea of creating a social networking site for those dealing with mental illness.
I still have tons of work to do, including further research; however I do have a platform from which to develop the site on. Now it's a matter of assembling all the pieces to make the site viable. Will keep y'all posted on the progress.
Now who has a win to report?
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Natasha240
Posts: 6438
Cassina de' Pecchi, Lombardy, Italy
Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:
When I try to tell you I'm depressed, please don't:
* Tell me how I should (not) conduct myself.
* Tell me how I should (not) act.
* Tell me what I should (not) be thinking.
* Tell me what I should (not) be doing.
* Tell me what I should (not) be feeling.
It doesn't help me. It only makes it worse.
People can really suck. It's why I avoid my family. I either get ignored completely or I get the above. I'm the youngest and no one wants to acknowledge that I'm a grown adult who is fully capable of taking care of my self and making my own decisions and either succeeding or failing on my own terms. I guess it helps them cope with getting older and things not being like the used to be. They don't wanna let go of the past. But, damn it, it's got me all fucked up in the process!
So now you all know where my feelings of inferiority come from. I've been told my whole childhood that I'm not capable, I can't do, I'm not good enough, I'm not smart enough. Eventually that shit just sticks. It's hard to shake out.
I am so fucked up.
Sorry guys/gals. It all just came out. {{HUG}}} Well, I like you
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Star Child wrote:
After further deliberation and talking the matter over with my sister I'm moving forward with the idea of creating a social networking site for those dealing with mental illness.
I still have tons of work to do, including further research; however I do have a platform from which to develop the site on. Now it's a matter of assembling all the pieces to make the site viable. Will keep y'all posted on the progress.
Now who has a win to report? There is a national group out there that has support groups all over the US. They might be able to help
well, I don't have a lose
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Dannielle Levan
Posts: 12865
New Westminster, British Columbia, Canada
Hey guys
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Solstice Rain
Posts: 13687
Davenport, Florida, US
Trying so hard to be up. Life keeps kicking me down. *sigh*
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Photons 2 Pixels Images
Posts: 17011
Berwick, Pennsylvania, US
Solstice Rain wrote:
Trying so hard to be up. Life keeps kicking me down. *sigh* Me too. *HUGS*
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Photons 2 Pixels Images
Posts: 17011
Berwick, Pennsylvania, US
Natasha240 wrote:
{{HUG}}} Well, I like you Thanks, gorgeous! 
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
Big A-Larger Than Life wrote:
Hi you gezz. Hi you. S'up?
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
Big A-Larger Than Life wrote:
The ceiling. pushed over any mountains this week?
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Big A-Larger Than Life
Posts: 33451
The Woodlands, Texas, US
Star Child wrote:
pushed over any mountains this week? Kinda. Had a bad day today, some heavy stuff, but I got some closure at the same time. Thing is, I thought closure was supposed to feel good.
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
Big A-Larger Than Life wrote:
Kinda. Had a bad day today, some heavy stuff, but I got some closure at the same time. Thing is, I thought closure was supposed to feel good. Hah! Closure just means one can move on. It can suck big time.
Hey, didn't I see where you were interested in starting some kind of charity?
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
morning The "other" Corey from Lost Boys od'ed sigh
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Reflected
Posts: 16390
New York, New York, US
http://www.last.fm/music/Richard+Buckner/_/Fater Leave and travel well Leave and travel well Leave yourself and live to tell And I hope your heart will travel well The moon will send you back The moon will send you back I prayed this night would never pass But I knew the moon would send you back Careful of our years Careful of our years I cried and fought my worst of fears Now I'm so frightened of our years I'll keep your name deep within I'll keep your name deep within Fighter Faker Fater and Sin Is the name I've taken deep within I saw such light in you I saw such light in you Crushed by the basement view The night I lost my light in you So, leave and travel well Leave and travel well Leave yourself and live to tell And I hope your heart will travel well.
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Big A-Larger Than Life
Posts: 33451
The Woodlands, Texas, US
Star Child wrote:
Hah! Closure just means one can move on. It can suck big time.
Hey, didn't I see where you were interested in starting some kind of charity? Yeah, the moving on is the hard part. ANd yes, I do want to start a charity nationwide for all young people affected by rape, sexual assault, etc.
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Big A-Larger Than Life wrote:
Yeah, the moving on is the hard part. ANd yes, I do want to start a charity nationwide for all young people affected by rape, sexual assault, etc. it is very hard but I don't like looking at is a moving on-moving forward is my preference.
It sort of acknowledges that it helped me be me.
and good luck
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
Big A-Larger Than Life wrote:
Yeah, the moving on is the hard part. ANd yes, I do want to start a charity nationwide for all young people affected by rape, sexual assault, etc. Yeah, it's kind of a "so what's next? what do I do now?" type of feeling. At least it was for me.
Cool idea. Way cool.
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
I hope some day to see so many of y'all face to face. This virtual world we meet in is both a blessing and a curse at times. By the way would somebody please, pass the peas? 
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Photons 2 Pixels Images
Posts: 17011
Berwick, Pennsylvania, US
Star Child wrote:
I hope some day to see so many of y'all face to face. This virtual world we meet in is both a blessing and a curse at times. By the way would somebody please, pass the peas?
I like to mix 'em up with the mashed taters and gravy. Yummy!
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Dannielle Levan
Posts: 12865
New Westminster, British Columbia, Canada
Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:
I like to mix 'em up with the mashed taters and gravy. Yummy! So hungry now!
I had some win and fail this week. Today i cleverly lost the trackball on my Blackberry, now i gotta find a new one.
On a nicer note, Hubby and I have figured out a plan to get me a precious Canon 50D, which would be a great upgrade from my Rebel XT!
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Miss Murder Photography wrote:
So hungry now!
I had some win and fail this week. Today i cleverly lost the trackball on my Blackberry, now i gotta find a new one.
On a nicer note, Hubby and I have figured out a plan to get me a precious Canon 50D, which would be a great upgrade from my Rebel XT! My birthday present was rebel...I've been having fun with it...my dad was hoping for the 50d
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Photons 2 Pixels Images
Posts: 17011
Berwick, Pennsylvania, US
Miss Murder Photography wrote:
So hungry now!
I had some win and fail this week. Today i cleverly lost the trackball on my Blackberry, now i gotta find a new one.
On a nicer note, Hubby and I have figured out a plan to get me a precious Canon 50D, which would be a great upgrade from my Rebel XT! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!! I want an upgrade too.
Faith EnFire wrote:
My birthday present was rebel...I've been having fun with it...my dad was hoping for the 50d
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
So here's the deal, I don't have a time table for when it's going to happen yet, but the mental illness support networking site I'm wanting to build will happen. Right now I have a lot of A-Z planning to do before I can even get into actual operations.
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Star Child wrote:
So here's the deal, I don't have a time table for when it's going to happen yet, but the mental illness support networking site I'm wanting to build will happen. Right now I have a lot of A-Z planning to do before I can even get into actual operations. that's good
measure twice cut once
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Chris Rifkin
Posts: 25581
Tampa, Florida, US
does getting an electric skillet for my truck cound as a win?
hell yeah!
I can now pull off and cook something healthy and lots of it
(ie,today I`m doing grilled tilapia with my homemade garlic and
herb seasoning w broccoli)
Will be cooking up a "healthyish" shrimp scampi this weekend
(lowfat/low cal butter,minced garlic,salt free garlic and herb
seasoning powder,origino,white wine(right now looking at chardonay)
topped with a dash of seasoned bread crums)mixed with
steamed broccoli instead of pasta....
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
Faith EnFire wrote:
that's good
measure twice cut once I still need to find solid income right now, but I believe this thing is a calling of sorts for me. Kind of feel like I've been groomed to do it. The technical side of it is so easy for me to understand and, although daunting, the business side of it doesn't scare me.
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
Chris Rifkin wrote:
does getting an electric skillet for my truck cound as a win?
hell yeah!
I can now pull off and cook something healthy and lots of it
(ie,today I`m doing grilled tilapia with my homemade garlic and
herb seasoning w broccoli)
Will be cooking up a "healthyish" shrimp scampi this weekend
(lowfat/low cal butter,minced garlic,salt free garlic and herb
seasoning powder,origino,white wine(right now looking at chardonay)
topped with a dash of seasoned bread crums)mixed with
steamed broccoli instead of pasta.... 
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Chris Rifkin wrote:
does getting an electric skillet for my truck cound as a win?
hell yeah!
I can now pull off and cook something healthy and lots of it
(ie,today I`m doing grilled tilapia with my homemade garlic and
herb seasoning w broccoli)
Will be cooking up a "healthyish" shrimp scampi this weekend
(lowfat/low cal butter,minced garlic,salt free garlic and herb
seasoning powder,origino,white wine(right now looking at chardonay)
topped with a dash of seasoned bread crums)mixed with
steamed broccoli instead of pasta.... that sounds really good
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Star Child wrote:
I still need to find solid income right now, but I believe this thing is a calling of sorts for me. Kind of feel like I've been groomed to do it. The technical side of it is so easy for me to understand and, although daunting, the business side of it doesn't scare me. maybe look into a government grant?
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
Faith EnFire wrote:
maybe look into a government grant? Great idea!! 
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Dannielle Levan
Posts: 12865
New Westminster, British Columbia, Canada
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Dannielle Levan
Posts: 12865
New Westminster, British Columbia, Canada
Big A-Larger Than Life wrote:
Star Child wrote:
Hah! Closure just means one can move on. It can suck big time.
Hey, didn't I see where you were interested in starting some kind of charity? Yeah, the moving on is the hard part. ANd yes, I do want to start a charity nationwide for all young people affected by rape, sexual assault, etc. I'd love to contribute to that, being a victim of sexual assault and child abuse. Even if it doesn't reach Canada, i still wanna help.
Faith EnFire wrote:
Miss Murder Photography wrote:
So hungry now!
I had some win and fail this week. Today i cleverly lost the trackball on my Blackberry, now i gotta find a new one.
On a nicer note, Hubby and I have figured out a plan to get me a precious Canon 50D, which would be a great upgrade from my Rebel XT! My birthday present was rebel...I've been having fun with it...my dad was hoping for the 50d Nice! It's a good little workhorse, i just want more res.
Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:
Miss Murder Photography wrote:
So hungry now!
I had some win and fail this week. Today i cleverly lost the trackball on my Blackberry, now i gotta find a new one.
On a nicer note, Hubby and I have figured out a plan to get me a precious Canon 50D, which would be a great upgrade from my Rebel XT! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!! I want an upgrade too.
Star Child wrote:
So here's the deal, I don't have a time table for when it's going to happen yet, but the mental illness support networking site I'm wanting to build will happen. Right now I have a lot of A-Z planning to do before I can even get into actual operations. I'd love to contribute to this too.
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
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