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Stopping by to send a little love. Things have been hectic as of late, but y'all are always in my heart. Sep 21 11 08:22 am Link Hi guys. Sorry to hear that some of you guys are having a tough time. I haven't been on much because my grandfather passed away. My head has been a little fuzzy. Going to try to go back to work tomorrow. Don't know if I'll make it but I'd like to try to go back to normal. Doesn't help that the stress has gotten me sick. My dog has been very supportive of the whole thing Those of you that are my friends on facebook can read his obituary on my page. He was a pretty incredible Sep 21 11 03:40 pm Link just a bump Sep 22 11 05:34 am Link Faith EnFire wrote: Coffee bump? Sep 22 11 05:35 am Link E P O N A wrote: sure Sep 22 11 06:53 am Link Sorry for your loss Sep 22 11 07:01 am Link E P O N A wrote: Sep 22 11 07:40 am Link Sorry I've been away for a few days. I had a crisis and was in the hospital for a couple of days. All is ok now. I missed you all. Faith, I'm so sorry for your loss but I know your Grandfather is looking down with love and pride at his wonderful Granddaughter. The love and support you give all of us here says everything about you and also those who raised you. I suspect your Grandfather is one of a kind. Thank God he gets to live on through your kind heart! I love you girl! Tim Sep 22 11 10:52 am Link He had a hard exterior and there was no complaining, but he was a softie. I'm very proud of him and my grandmother and all their accomplishments. soooo TGIF Sep 23 11 04:24 am Link Faith EnFire wrote: TGIF Hugs to everyone! Sep 23 11 06:52 am Link Afternoon bump. Just wanted you all to know I was thinking of my thread friends Sep 23 11 02:46 pm Link Faith EnFire wrote: Weekend hugs Sep 24 11 08:31 am Link Hey folks. Poking my head in to let you know that I still think about you, even though I'm not in here very often. Sep 24 11 08:34 am Link Hi Lawrence. Happy weekend everyone! Sep 24 11 01:27 pm Link Rant time? Recently, I almost killed myself in an act of self-infliction. My whole life I have battled severe depression, social anxiety, drug and alcohol addictions, and eating disorders. I have an extremely happy life, however. In six days, my hubby and I are relocating our newlywed asses to California from West Virginia, to be happy and make a better life for our family than we could ever have here. I don't know why I've been so depressed. I've been throwing up, almost died (terrified the shit out of my poor husband and his parents.) I don't know what's going on. I'm so happy. And I even have better self-esteem than before. It's just like, lately, when I get depressed, I get severely depressed, I guess, and act out. I dunno. Sep 24 11 10:11 pm Link Sammi Sunshine wrote: Hi Sammi! I'm sorry you are going through this but you are doing the right thing to talk about it. I'm very open about my condition. I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from an explosion that left me with massive 3rd degree burns. Along with that I have chronic, severe depression and anxiety problems. I've been in therapy for sometime now so my life is much better. But I still have down days. Sep 24 11 11:03 pm Link hola tim covered it pretty well depression is a disease that comes and goes without our permission but I've learned-after many many years that it doesn't have to control us. Therapy helps, medication, self intervention-ie brownies, deep breathing; pets these are all tools that we need to make use of because we are worth it and of course we are here. feel free to message people on this thread. The support here has helped many of us thru tough times Sep 25 11 06:06 am Link Happy Sunday everyone! I had fried chicken for breakfast and I liked it! Sep 25 11 09:07 am Link It's 12:05am. Sleep, you elusive temptress, why hast thou forsaken me? Sep 25 11 09:08 pm Link morning fingers crossed. might be working on a very good model. negotiating rate. honestly, this model was the reason i got into model photography.. didn't have much of a chance to shoot this weekend. I'm going to try to do it this week. must. shoot. something Sep 26 11 05:28 am Link Enfire Photography wrote: beautiful Sep 26 11 06:32 am Link Star Child wrote: mm cereal Sep 26 11 07:23 am Link I had fried chicken for breakfast yesterday. Sep 26 11 07:54 am Link Tim Little Photography wrote: mm fried chicken Sep 26 11 08:04 am Link Okay, so this is a new one for me. I'm convinced that I've been in a depressive episode for the last three weeks or so. The odd thing is that I don't have the associated mood changes. What I do have is extreme fatigue and lack of motivation, but emotionally I rate myself as "very good." I attribute the causes to 1) turmoil regarding my new job, 2) turmoil regarding a potential romance, and 3) somewhat different dosages for my meds - although the med changes happened after this episode started. I find it interesting. Sep 26 11 12:29 pm Link Lawrence Guy wrote: Hi Lawrence, Sep 26 11 12:50 pm Link feelin very low today hating me why do we all discriminate I wish I could just be a girl and live without shaving Sep 26 11 02:28 pm Link Today was the real beginning of the end for me. Since becoming disabled my income has gone from $60,000+ to less that $900 a month. Today my car was repossessed and the sheriff posted the foreclosure sale date on my front door. October 11th. It's times like these that I envy people who have family they can turn to. I'm too broke to file bankruptcy so I am trying to get the Legal Aid people to file before the sale date. If they do so before the sale date It gets cancelled and I have three months to either get to where I can get caught up or find a new place to live. The National Mental Health Association has 156 private homes, nice ones, where people with PTSD can live with others who share the same problem. There is a 2-3 year waiting list. I contacted the Delaware Dept of Housing, same thing, 3+ year waiting list for housing assistance. I just needed to vent, I'm not looking for answers, there are none. My only hope is to find a room share that I can afford on Craigslist. I love the wonderful people here in this thread. I actually thought about you when I was having suicidal ideations. Thanks for caring. Sep 26 11 05:40 pm Link Tim Little Photography wrote: I wish I could help you. Sep 26 11 07:41 pm Link Jules NYC wrote: Thank you Jules! Good Karma, good prayers, good thoughts. That stuff works and I need it. Bless you my kind friend! Sep 27 11 01:21 am Link hugs to you both. lawrence-a change in medication can certainly be the cause of the exhaustion and lack of motivation. give it a bit and if it doesn't improve-obviously speak to your doctor Tim, I feel for you. I see people (well read about) like every day at work. it's frustrating when you cannot help. Just keep on the housing people. They told me that it would take a year for a friend of mine into a housing program...we got him in-in about three weeks. Sep 27 11 04:10 am Link *hugs to everyone* Happy Tuesday. Sep 27 11 05:41 am Link E P O N A wrote: Sep 27 11 05:42 am Link Good morning everyone, I'm sorry. Good Afternoon everyone! Let's all see if we can make this a great day! Sep 27 11 09:15 am Link It can be extremely difficult to fight off life's assaults when we are struggling within ourselves just to meet each day. I want you all to know that despite the above truth we can and we will overcome and win our battles. Regardless of what befalls you we are meant to overcome them. Sep 27 11 11:49 am Link Star Child wrote: thank you. I really need to hear/read that just now Sep 27 11 12:08 pm Link Faith EnFire wrote: I'm sorry you are feeling down Faith. If it helps just know that the difficult times you go through turn into important, life saving lessons because you share yourself with us. You're here for us all the time and I know my life is better for having your wisdom to consider. You know we are here for you and I'm a PM away if you want. Bless you sweet Faith. Sep 27 11 03:26 pm Link Tim Little Photography wrote: Thanks, Tim Sep 28 11 04:52 am Link quotes for the day " Sometimes, people just say 'I'm fine' because its difficult to find someone who actually listens and cares about your life" "what we remember can always be changed, what we forget we are always"-richard shelton Sep 28 11 04:55 am Link Faith EnFire wrote: At least it feels that way sometimes Sep 29 11 09:17 am Link |