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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
Tim Little Photography wrote:
Good afternoon my wonderful friends. I've been away a day or two. I'm in a depressed state where I don't have the energy to type. I'm getting to the other side of it so I wanted stop by, tell you all I love you and hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
Love
Tim I hope you're more active soon.
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KGSF
Posts: 1791
Santa Fe, New Mexico, US
SPS_Photography wrote:
Good morning everyone. I'm new to this particular thread, but as of today, I'm really glad it was started. Also, I'm glad to see Tim on here because he has been a support through couple of deaths in my life in 2011.
I'm in a real state of depression that has grown immensely this week. I've gotten two speeding tickets in 3 days and I don't see myself slowing down. I've read into "speed addiction" and there are doctors that say it's a legitimate issue. I've acknowledged within myself that I have a problem as well as to the CHP that pulled me over this morning. However, I'm too ashamed and embarrassed to tell anyone else. I feel like I'll be told it's not a real addiction and nobody will be willing to help. It's putting me in major financial trouble (which has been bad already), and is making my depression worse. I feel like I have nothing to live for other than to pay off debt for the rest of my life and that it'd be easier to just end my life. But I can't bring myself to it. If I died on the freeway speeding, I feel that would be my best option or way out
Does anyone hear me out there? A friend with a degree in psychotherapy (not my personal therapist) pointed this out to me, and I think it makes sense.
The term "addiction" properly refers in a technical sense to physical dependence on chemical substances.
It has now been applied inaccurately to a variety of behavioral problems, causing confusion among lay people.
A more useful and accurate distinction is "compulsive behaviors".
All addictions are compulsive behaviors, but not all compulsive behaviors are addictions (in the technical sense of having a substance habituation component).
Compulsive but not addictive behaviors though, do have similar if not identical neurotransmitter function derangements, usually involving the dopamine reward system being chronically over or under stimulated, and can be treated with similar (but unique to each problem) modalities.
By removing the inaccurate term "addiction" from the conversation when addressing a compulsive behavior, but remaining aware of how it does have biochemical similarities to true chemical addictions, much confusion and associated distress caused by others trivializing the problem can be removed.
Good luck!
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11771
Wilmington, Delaware, US
Kurt, my friend, my brother! I have been thinking about this for the past 20 minutes and it digs right into me. There are so many things that I am compelled to do that only hold me back. I never though of it this way. Thanks for sharing your information. We all grow together!
Tim
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KGSF
Posts: 1791
Santa Fe, New Mexico, US
It makes me happy when I can be useful to friends, Tim. 
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11771
Wilmington, Delaware, US
Good morning Model Mayhemer's! Welcome to Sunday! We have an exciting day planned for you starting with a tasty breakfast of all your favorites. Then we will make your wildest dreams come true followed by an evening of absolute bliss. This is the S&V thread, welcome to our world where everyone is welcomed to unload their burden or seek information on topics as diverse as suicide, violence, depression, anxiety, drug dependency and anything else that tugs at your mind, your heart, your soul. I'm Tim, just one of the many people who care about what you are going through. We have gone through tough times of our own and are always happy to help.
I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Chronic Severe Depression with panic attacks. Through meds and therapy I am feeling like my old self. My MM family has been here for me during dark days and they celebrate the bright days. If I can be of help to you please feel free to send me a private message. You have friends here!
Tim
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Chris Rifkin
Posts: 25581
Tampa, Florida, US
One of the last candles I of hope I have is starting to dim out on me.. 
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Jules NYC
Posts: 21617
New York, New York, US
Chris Rifkin wrote:
One of the last candles I of hope I have is starting to dim out on me..
Well here's a bunch more
![https://images.fanpop.com/images/image_uploads/Candles-candles-517649_800_622.jpg]()
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Chris Rifkin
Posts: 25581
Tampa, Florida, US
Jules NYC wrote:
Well here's a bunch more
![https://images.fanpop.com/images/image_uploads/Candles-candles-517649_800_622.jpg]() I'll PM ya later....
not good
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Jules NYC
Posts: 21617
New York, New York, US
Chris Rifkin wrote:
I'll PM ya later....
not good
Well hang in there.
Try your best; it's hard.
Talk to you later.
-Jules
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
morning monday.
Who wants to ride with to the grocery?
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
Tim Little Photography wrote:
Thank you Star Child. I needed this tonight. In fact I needed it right now and here it was waiting on me. Thank you my wonderful friend!
Tim
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Star Child wrote:
morning monday.
Who wants to ride with to the grocery? don't tell anyone, but I picked up hotpockets yesterday..so tired of cooking
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Chris Rifkin
Posts: 25581
Tampa, Florida, US
Faith EnFire wrote:
don't tell anyone, but I picked up hotpockets yesterday..so tired of cooking Im so tired of eating healthy...
I mean I do cave a cheat day once a week and grab a few slices (if there is pizza that I consider edible..and as a pizza snob that grew up in snookiville..aka Long Island, NY I would qualify)
but its getting frustrating when on a daily basis I have to choose steamed chicken and broccoli/sauce on the side and resist fried rice,ect....resist the best fried chicken ever at the Royal Farms here in the mid atlantic....any potential comfort foods I pass when shopping(I so want to down a whole box of Gorton's fish sticks as I had not had this in over 15 years)..so on and so forth
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Chris Rifkin wrote:
Im so tired of eating healthy...
I mean I do cave a cheat day once a week and grab a few slices (if there is pizza that I consider edible..and as a pizza snob that grew up in snookiville..aka Long Island, NY I would qualify)
but its getting frustrating when on a daily basis I have to choose steamed chicken and broccoli/sauce on the side and resist fried rice,ect....resist the best fried chicken ever at the Royal Farms here in the mid atlantic....any potential comfort foods I pass when shopping(I so want to down a whole box of Gorton's fish sticks as I had not had this in over 15 years)..so on and so forth me too
well, tired of eating healthy
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Andy Virus
Posts: 2230
Richmond, Virginia, US
Thank you very much for this
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11771
Wilmington, Delaware, US
Andy Virus wrote:
Thank you very much for this
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
I had leftover pizza for dinner tonight
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
chicken, bacon, and cheese hotpocket.yum and truffle cake pooped today. don't know why. slept good
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11771
Wilmington, Delaware, US
Welcome to Tuesday y'all. Today is August 23rd. On this day in 1959 Hawaii became our 50th state. A few minutes later, in a small town Alabama hospital, I was born!!!
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Tim Little Photography wrote:
Welcome to Tuesday y'all. Today is August 23rd. On this day in 1959 Hawaii became our 50th state. A few minutes later, in a small town Alabama hospital, I was born!!! woot
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Suzie Polat
Posts: 176
Sydney, New South Wales, Australia
I am just amazed at how supportive this thread is. I have been growing more depressed recently and just seeing the support between people here really warms my heart.
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Suzie Polat wrote:
I am just amazed at how supportive this thread is. I have been growing more depressed recently and just seeing the support between people here really warms my heart. 
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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
Tuesday. SVU allll day. 
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
E P O N A wrote:
Tuesday. SVU allll day. special victims unit?
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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
Faith EnFire wrote:
special victims unit? Yup. Love that show.
I got my kitty support group here too.
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11771
Wilmington, Delaware, US
Suzie Polat wrote:
I am just amazed at how supportive this thread is. I have been growing more depressed recently and just seeing the support between people here really warms my heart. Well we are so happy that you found our MM "support group". I have post traumatic stress disorder and severe chronic depression so I know all about the pain you are going through. If you ever want to "talk" feel free to PM me or any of the others that you see here often. We are here to help Suzie!!
Tim
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
E P O N A wrote:
Yup. Love that show.
I got my kitty support group here too.
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11771
Wilmington, Delaware, US
Faith EnFire wrote:
I am starting to seriously look at animals. I need something furry. the house is too empty and my friends to flakey Have you considered a shelter dog? Also keep in mind that I am very hairy and house broken. I would love to be your pet Faith!!
Woof Woof
Tim
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Tim Little Photography wrote:
Have you considered a shelter dog? yup
that's what my last was. but i don't want to force it. so i have to be patient and wait for the blinking arrow for the right furry pal
there is one with a mohawk but i think i just want him cause of that -cause they had to shave him when he came in
i have some breed restrictions with teh apartment. landlord's insurance won't allow certain breed/breed mixes.
GSD, rotts, pits, dobes, chows
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Star Child
Posts: 39289
Nashville, Tennessee, US
Faith EnFire wrote:
yup
that's what my last was. but i don't want to force it. so i have to be patient and wait for the blinking arrow for the right furry pal
there is one with a mohawk but i think i just want him cause of that -cause they had to shave him when he came in
i have some breed restrictions with teh apartment. landlord's insurance won't allow certain breed/breed mixes.
GSD, rotts, pits, dobes, chows kitty
Photographer
E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
Any of you on LJ?
I've started that again. Not sure how long it will last though!
Photographer
E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
Faith EnFire wrote:
I am starting to seriously look at animals. I need something furry. the house is too empty and my friends to flakey Eeee! DO it! They're such a big help!
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
E P O N A wrote:
Eeee! DO it! They're such a big help! found a few that I'd like but just trying to be patient. working out the new budget with the new car payment, but seriously look at this guy
http://www.petfinder.com/petdetail/20343977
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
Star Child wrote:
kitty maybe. not really a cat person, but open to the idea
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E P O N A
Posts: 13765
Copiague, New York, US
Faith EnFire wrote:
found a few that I'd like but just trying to be patient. working out the new budget with the new car payment, but seriously look at this guy
http://www.petfinder.com/petdetail/20343977 I found my first two off petfinder. *nods*
I got them at the police station. They were taken away from a cat lady that had over 30 cats.
My calico I got from a woman that does rescue (she was rescue from a neglectful owner) and Tyler from the same lady (he was feral).
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Faith EnFire
Posts: 13514
Milwaukee, Wisconsin, US
E P O N A wrote:
I found my first two off petfinder. *nods*
I got them at the police station. They were taken away from a cat lady that had over 30 cats.
My calico I got from a woman that does rescue (she was rescue from a neglectful owner) and Tyler from the same lady (he was feral). did you see, teddy has a mohawk 
ther are a couple of low key dogs. walks every day are more than enough-more of snugglers and car ride dogs -thats my type of dog
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