Faith EnFire wrote:
hi you guys. no cookies for me...i'm on a salt binge. got any kosher midget pickles

I saw your thread, Tim. that sucks...

Hi Faith, I saw your other post about midget pickles. You're getting me horny for salty treats girl!!

Star Child wrote:
Two parts could be the problem. Both over 100 and one would take special order. Car repairs. Bah!

uggh

i hate those days when its all about the repairs. expensive ones

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Good morning everyone. I woke up and went straight into a deep depression today. I can't stop crying and I'm overcome with terror. I had a flashback dream and I think most of you know where those take me. I'll take any love you can spare. I love all of you very much!

Tim

hug...

Scottsworld71 wrote:
nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnope ... but im still on vacation so its ok i guess lol

well asking if you were ready was sorta courtesy

Its here...ready or not

Bambolina wrote:
Hello everyone

I just wanted to stop in and say hello, and how wonderful it is so see so much love and support in this thread.

As a survivor of years of emotional and physical abuse, I can certainly relate to the very dark paths we can contemplate when it feels like nothing is ever going to change or get better.  Most days I fight just to be o.k. in my own skin.

My issues have gotten a lot better since leaving the caustic environment that surrounds my family, but I still struggle.

This thread has been here to remind me that there are people and resources to turn to, no matter how bad things get.

So thanks

*hugs for all*

Welcome Bambolina, we are delighted to have you join us. There are such wonderful people here and you can talk about anything that's on your mind. I have Post-Traumatic-Stress-Disorder and Major Depressive Disorder-severe. If you ever feel the need to talk feel free to send me a private message. Take care sweetie!

Tim

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Good morning everyone. I woke up and went straight into a deep depression today. I can't stop crying and I'm overcome with terror. I had a flashback dream and I think most of you know where those take me. I'll take any love you can spare. I love all of you very much!

Tim

HUgs my dear.

Feel free to message me if you need.

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Good morning everyone. I woke up and went straight into a deep depression today. I can't stop crying and I'm overcome with terror. I had a flashback dream and I think most of you know where those take me. I'll take any love you can spare. I love all of you very much!

Tim

(((hugs))))

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Good morning everyone. I woke up and went straight into a deep depression today. I can't stop crying and I'm overcome with terror. I had a flashback dream and I think most of you know where those take me. I'll take any love you can spare. I love all of you very much!

Tim

*huggs*

Chris Rifkin wrote:
Ehh.........

shared your fb status yesterday with a few friends
they got a good laugh out of it

Kelsey-L wrote:
Sigh.. I feel like I'm about to wear myself out again..

I go through cycles.. Where I make myself so incredibly busy to try and take my mind off things.. So on top of booking shoots, runway shows, working full time I decided to get a part time job.

I really think the benefits will help, the extra money and taking my mind off things, but I also think that not having much of a social life may take it's toll on me.

I'm hoping to keep this a short term thing. Only planning on working there until after Xmas.. but I'm hoping it doesn't take a negative affect before then.

and you said you weren't motivated. I think plenty of things motivate you...you just might be too pooped

looks like you have to schedule lots of things. so you could schedule time for you-like your own date. go get your hair done, check a movie with a friend. read, meditate

when i was runnying around like that...I found actually scheduling time for me helped a lot

Faith EnFire wrote:

and you said you weren't motivated. I think plenty of things motivate you...you just might be too pooped

looks like you have to schedule lots of things. so you could schedule time for you-like your own date. go get your hair done, check a movie with a friend. read, meditate

when i was runnying around like that...I found actually scheduling time for me helped a lot

I force myself to do things.. I finally got to the point where I realised I can't just sit at home.

I start to plan personal time.. but then realise I could be working.. or shooting and reschedule my personal time..

Kelsey-L wrote:

I force myself to do things.. I finally got to the point where I realised I can't just sit at home.

I start to plan personal time.. but then realise I could be working.. or shooting and reschedule my personal time..

make sure you keep to your personal time. you are important too and need you time. either alone or with friends. it is very important to have some down time

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Let me give you a quick update. The chemicals in my brain got off their ass and started squirting around so I feel better now. I love you guys more than you can know, thanks for caring about me. I don't know what I would do without y'all.

Glad you're feeling better!

Kelsey-L wrote:

Glad you're feeling better!

Thanks sweetie, I just sent you a PM.

Andy Durazo wrote:
I'm going nuts!!!
It's sad when you're more comfortable at work or any where other than home!

If we can be of help Andy just let us know.

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Good morning everyone. Welcome to Friday!

ready or not

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Good morning beautiful people. It is Saturday, go forth and frollic!

Good morning Tim! Thanks for the kind welcome


I hope everyone is having a lovely weekend. I am about to go see a movie with my unbelievably loving viking boyfriend and a few friends, then working out to get those happy chemicals flowing. Its a good day so far.

Chris Rifkin wrote:
Not good...
I'm really starting to think its always going to be like this the rest of my life..
It really hurts when I see everyone else meeting up,and wondering why I can never be in the right place at the right time when someone I know would be perfect for me is single and looking

I can relate.

I took in a friend and his gf as roommates recently. I get to be reminded even when I'm home. It's bitter sweat. I'm good with myself, but I do miss that kind of companionship.

Chris Rifkin wrote:
Not good...
I'm really starting to think its always going to be like this the rest of my life..
It really hurts when I see everyone else meeting up,and wondering why I can never be in the right place at the right time when someone I know would be perfect for me is single and looking

I feel ya. A good friend of mine told me I need to "lower my standards" ... because my standards of "dont be a raging alcoholic" "non smoker" "dont be a psycho that'll chop my peter off and destroy it in the garbage disposal" sets the bar too high I guess. Im working on a group trip to the bahamas next year, ive noticed that everyone that has said they were coming has a signifigant other ... except me

Chris Rifkin wrote:
Not good...
I'm really starting to think its always going to be like this the rest of my life..
It really hurts when I see everyone else meeting up,and wondering why I can never be in the right place at the right time when someone I know would be perfect for me is single and looking

I know how you feel Chris. I had not been on a date since things ended with my ex in 1992. A couple of months ago I got to Facebooking  with a girl from college and one thing led to another and now we are in love. Are you putting yourself in a target rich environment? Where are you trying to meet people?

Scottsworld71 wrote:

I feel ya. A good friend of mine told me I need to "lower my standards" ... because my standards of "dont be a raging alcoholic" "non smoker" "dont be a psycho that'll chop my peter off and destroy it in the garbage disposal" sets the bar too high I guess. Im working on a group trip to the bahamas next year, ive noticed that everyone that has said they were coming has a signifigant other ... except me

Worst advice ever..when one lowers their standards its basicly throwing in the white towel and giving up....I mean,most sane guys(and I would like to consider myself one) would tend to know their "limitations" in what they could reasonably attract(ie,yeah,looks are important to me,but I am not going to chase a "9" or a "10" living in Hollywood or Vegas,ect....as even if they are "interested,you are being used until someone they really want comes along),but at the same time(and my therapist stresses this every session) I also will refuse to believe that any woman I would be interested in is "out of my league",though unfortunately ones I do fine atractive seemeing would never give a 42 year old guy who drives a truck long haul for a living and was financially destroyed by his ex a look