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Bump.... cause this thread really helped me once and it can do the same for someone else too. May 31 11 05:45 pm Link Hi all. I am just posting before I go to sleep...Which I really need to do because the longer I am awake, the more my bad mood creeps in and I don't know why. I am going back to the doctor in the afternoon to discuss some new medication for my depression. I would usually cancel having thought of something more important to do but I have cornered myself this time; I've booked a double appointment as my contraceptive injection is due as of the Monday just gone. I have to pick my boyfriend up from the airport on Wednesday night so I would like to have the injection done to minimise my risk of pregnancy. Basically, I won't cancel. I am so sick of feeling this way. I thought I was doing okay after quitting the first meds I was prescribed but the physical symptoms of my depression are back. They are what led to a diagnosis in the first place and the pills last year got rid of the symptoms. I didn't even realise how much they had improved my phsyical problems until they started creeping back slowly over the past couple of months. I don't want to feel like a zombie. How can I be a good model, MUA and clothing designer if I have no drive to be creative. I couldn't even write anything worth reading when I was on those tablets before. I hope that the new ones they give me work better for me this time. I was on Citalopram before, in case anyone is curious to know. I just wanted to share. I do feel so awfully lonely, I suppose. But yet I don't want to talk...I have people I can talk to but I have chosen not to talk to them. Maybe I just wanted to tell people, without worrying about what they will say to me. I don't want advice, I think I just want someone to acknowledge that I am finding things hard. I'm not very good at relying on people I suppose. May 31 11 06:31 pm Link Maja Stina wrote: I hear you, and I understand. Lot's of us are listening. May 31 11 06:33 pm Link Star Child wrote: One of these days, for sure. I've always wanted to go there. Jun 01 11 09:13 am Link E P O N A wrote: Even if you don't get down here to me, I like the idea of you getting out to travel around a bit. Jun 01 11 12:33 pm Link Star Child wrote: Once my health is more stable it's one of the things I want to do. Jun 01 11 03:22 pm Link Maja Stina wrote: That is a major factor in mine. For me, sleep is just as important, if not more important, than the happy pills. Maja Stina wrote: I completely hear you here. I tried several different ones until I found the one that worked. good luck. If they don't make a difference after a few weeks, be sure to have your doctor give you a different one! Follow up too. One of the flavors I got I thought was working pretty good, but on a follow-up, my doctor realized that it was way, way wrong for me. Maja Stina wrote: I understand this too. I hate to rely on people. I hate when I can't do something myself. It's very hard for me to do. Jun 01 11 03:41 pm Link Sad, tough day, but I will overcome Jun 02 11 10:47 am Link Hope things go better, Kevin. Jun 02 11 04:26 pm Link Star Child wrote: I have this image of you as a boxer in a never-ending match, where the opponents keep changing but you keep slugging on. You get knocked down sometimes but always get up before the ten-count. You're bloody and bruised but fundamentally strong. I've only now realized that this image of you has been in my head for as long as I remember knowing you. You don't get to be a champion without getting hit pretty hard. Jun 02 11 05:58 pm Link Star Child wrote: *hugs* Jun 03 11 05:41 am Link morning just stopping thru Maja, its about finding what works for you. different medications work better for different people. it took awhile for my dr/s to find one for me and it helped me not to need them in the end kev *hug* epona *hug* Chris *hug* lawrence *hug* and anyone I missed or is reading it *hug* I am sick and want to go back to sleep but got to try and get my sleep schedule back to the work one. have to go back on monday Jun 03 11 06:54 am Link Sick of forest fires! Still doing really well, though, in spite of evacuation preparations! Hope your day is going better than mine. Jun 04 11 01:10 pm Link Lawrence Guy wrote: Jun 04 11 01:18 pm Link ckhd Photography wrote: Okay. That's good news and thank you for the update. Jun 04 11 01:18 pm Link ckhd Photography wrote: Maja Stina wrote: That is a major factor in mine. For me, sleep is just as important, if not more important, than the happy pills. Maja Stina wrote: I completely hear you here. I tried several different ones until I found the one that worked. good luck. If they don't make a difference after a few weeks, be sure to have your doctor give you a different one! Follow up too. One of the flavors I got I thought was working pretty good, but on a follow-up, my doctor realized that it was way, way wrong for me. Thanks. Jun 05 11 06:19 am Link Enfire Photography wrote: *hug* Jun 05 11 10:52 am Link Hmmm... the half-life for most of the stuff I've been given has been around two weeks. My doc has made me use a specific flavor for at least three weeks before he would decide to change it... just so it has the time to start showing effectiveness and side-effects. Some were longer, but my doc knew which ones took longer to 'kick in'. My main point was to keep in touch with the doctor... they are the ones that know about the medications, and not do like I did with Lexapro, and take it for two years when it was causing horrible side-effects and wasn't very effective for me just because I didn't know any better. I didn't explain that very well in the post... sorry. Jun 05 11 11:09 am Link I'm not about to quit. If I did how would the world be able to experience the awesomeness of my victory dance? Jun 05 11 09:42 pm Link blahh. self esteem and self confidence issues surfacing again... the cancer I have called lonliness is comming out of remission Getting that sickening feeling yet again that its always going to be like this.... I see a couple together and wonder when,where and how am I ever going to find a girl like that and the even more sickening answer that its never going to happen because I`m never in situations where I would meet someone like that Jun 05 11 10:06 pm Link ckhd Photography wrote: lexapro made me angry Jun 06 11 04:55 am Link morning all. back at work Jun 06 11 04:56 am Link Chris Rifkin wrote: there are days when I feel like this Jun 06 11 09:10 am Link Faith EnFire wrote: coffee or shall we trade lunch boxes? Jun 06 11 09:10 am Link Star Child wrote: oh no questions, please Jun 06 11 09:21 am Link Faith EnFire wrote: *sad for stuffy head* Jun 06 11 09:35 am Link Star Child wrote: yay? I think Jun 06 11 09:57 am Link Faith EnFire wrote: See? There ya go. A new deal. Jun 06 11 10:06 am Link FINALLY found a new doctor. Gotta wait until the 28th to see him though. Gotta try to hang in there. Jun 06 11 10:13 am Link but why trade? I has the coolest one to begin with Jun 06 11 10:21 am Link E P O N A wrote: You can make it. Just be careful about giving in to despair. *huggs* Faith EnFire wrote: Yeah. That's my point. Jun 06 11 10:26 am Link E P O N A wrote: you can do it *insert lowrider music** Jun 06 11 11:12 am Link Star Child wrote: then it's not a good trade for me is it? Jun 06 11 11:13 am Link Faith EnFire wrote: Kind of like TF* Jun 06 11 11:27 am Link Jun 06 11 11:28 am Link It's amazes me how worthless I feel at times. Jun 06 11 11:28 am Link Star Child wrote: oh really.... Jun 06 11 11:29 am Link Star Child wrote: *forcible lunchbox trading hug* Jun 06 11 11:30 am Link Faith EnFire wrote: uhm... something like that? Jun 06 11 11:45 am Link Faith EnFire wrote: just trials and tribulations, that's all Jun 06 11 11:46 am Link |