Faith EnFire wrote:
I guess it was a good Monday for everyone

Some of my Monday http://kayelless.wordpress.com/2012/01/23/plan-b/

Squeekerz wrote:
I was nearly triggered there for a moment when I started reading the comments on people with BPD.   I actually am diagnosed Borderline, so I irrationally take things personally when BPD sufferers as a whole are targeted in a generalized statement.  I was very happy and relieved to see that none of that happened. :]

BPD sucks... I hate it...


As for this thread, I am so happy it is here.

I feel the same way at times on the subject of depression. One of the reasons we keep this thread going is to increase awareness to the truths of such conditions and dispel myths and misconceptions.

Star Child wrote:
I feel the same way at times on the subject of depression. One of the reasons we keep this thread going is to increase awareness to the truths of such conditions and dispel myths and misconceptions.

That's great.   Now I'm here for anyone to talk to as well.   I suffer from clinical depression and have been on and off many combinations of medications as well.  Unfortunately, when you throw BPD into the mix, it makes it even harder to manage depression, because one of the worst symptoms is the feeling of being empty.  It also is very hard to feel like you have any worth when you feel that you lack a personality of your own, and you are always waiting for the next moment someone is going to hurt you.

I feel for everyone here, I really do.  And those that have suffered along with someone with BPD, I assure you that I will never completely defend the hurtful things that they have put you through.   I have made my mistakes and hurt some people, but never to the extent that I have read.  I suppose it is because I have had an awareness that something was wrong, even though I couldn't fix it myself...

Barbara DivaEroticus wrote:
Bad day for me.

Would you like to talk about it?

Squeekerz wrote:

That's great.   Now I'm here for anyone to talk to as well.   I suffer from clinical depression and have been on and off many combinations of medications as well.  Unfortunately, when you throw BPD into the mix, it makes it even harder to manage depression, because one of the worst symptoms is the feeling of being empty.  It also is very hard to feel like you have any worth when you feel that you lack a personality of your own, and you are always waiting for the next moment someone is going to hurt you.

I feel for everyone here, I really do.  And those that have suffered along with someone with BPD, I assure you that I will never completely defend the hurtful things that they have put you through.   I have made my mistakes and hurt some people, but never to the extent that I have read.  I suppose it is because I have had an awareness that something was wrong, even though I couldn't fix it myself...

Squeekerz, I want to apologize to you and everyone else in our little home here if any of my comments about BPD caused you any anxiety at all. My experience is based on my life with one person who while diagnosed refused to believe it and didn't care about the emotional damage she was causing to all who love her. I'm so happy that you are here to help us all make it day to day with the collection of obstacles that stand in our way. I believe that when we join together for knowledge and support we all grow stronger. My severe depression and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder are from a terrible event in my childhood. If I can ever be of any assistance to you please do not hesitate to post here or PM me.

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Squeekerz, I want to apologize to you and everyone else in our little home here if any of my comments about BPD caused you any anxiety at all. My experience is based on my life with one person who while diagnosed refused to believe it and didn't care about the emotional damage she was causing to all who love her. I'm so happy that you are here to help us all make it day to day with the collection of obstacles that stand in our way. I believe that when we join together for knowledge and support we all grow stronger. My severe depression and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder are from a terrible event in my childhood. If I can ever be of any assistance to you please do not hesitate to post here or PM me.

No need to apologize.  It is quite alright for you to express your feelings, and very good that you do so!  I was only anxious for a moment when I thought things were going to go in an extremely negative direction.  There is an entire forum area on a site I go to dedicated to BPD, but there is not nearly as much support for people suffering from it as there are posts about how awful people with BPD are.  I understand the hurt that people have experienced on account of an undiagnosed partner, and that it is hard to separate a single person from the entire group with the disorder, but there were a lot of hurtful things on that supposed support group.

You have said nothing wrong, so please don't ever try and filter yourself when speaking of your experiences.   It actually is good for me, and others with BPD, to take a look at our own actions anyway.  :]

Squeekerz wrote:

Would you like to talk about it?

I can't here.

Star Child wrote:
One of my biggest speed bumps in recovery is the fact that I spend so much time alone.  So last night I was contemplating this situation regarding loneliness when I was going to say, "I sleep alone," but then I looked over my shoulder..

Snuggle dog now waits till i'm asleep and stop moving around to climb into bed with me.

someone always loves you when you have a pet

Raaawr wrote:
Anyone know WHERE I can ship my ignorant, abusive, shit stirring family too?

families can be very trying sometimes

I'm thankful that my relationship with mine has changed dramatically for the better-mostly when I changed how I interacted with them

oooh, you're a poi dancer!!! Me too, me too

Faith EnFire wrote:
morning all
happy thursday
so the plan is to get my haircut and my eyebrows done tonight. and then hang out with some friends later

tomorrow I turn 30. It feels weird. I don't feel adult enough to be 30
at first i was depressed about it, then excited, now...now I'm some place inbetween

Wish I could join you for the celebration

Presley ONeil wrote:
Nowayy my birthdays Friday(:

Happy birthday a little early!

Presley ONeil wrote:
Nowayy my birthdays Friday(:

Star Child wrote:

Wish I could join you for the celebration

i have no real celebration. just doing stuff i want to do and screw everyone else

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Hi everyone. I'm hurting today. A LOT!! Physically both of my legs have areas of intense pain. I don't want to go into the gory details but its related to the burns. Emotionally I just as bad. The physical pain doesn't help my anxiety and my financial situation has me deeply depressed.

Kind thoughts and prayers will be appreciated. A $100K loan will be greatly appreciated!!!!!!

I'm so sorry.

I wish I had a 100Gs to give you.
I don't have any answers, but I have this flower:

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Hi everyone. I'm hurting today. A LOT!! Physically both of my legs have areas of intense pain. I don't want to go into the gory details but its related to the burns. Emotionally I just as bad. The physical pain doesn't help my anxiety and my financial situation has me deeply depressed.

Kind thoughts and prayers will be appreciated. A $100K loan will be greatly appreciated!!!!!!

sorry you hurt, Tim
Just find your safe place

out of curiousity, have you seen if there are any art grants thru programs like ADA?

edit: laughter is good for the soul. i stole this off the I loled thread

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Hi everyone. I'm hurting today. A LOT!! Physically both of my legs have areas of intense pain. I don't want to go into the gory details but its related to the burns. Emotionally I just as bad. The physical pain doesn't help my anxiety and my financial situation has me deeply depressed.

Kind thoughts and prayers will be appreciated. A $100K loan will be greatly appreciated!!!!!!

*sits quietly on rock next to friend*
Hold on my friend. I know many of those feelings, too and we will overcome. We are overcoming them.

Kayelless wrote:
Watching the pace of victory. We sometimes don't manifest at a rate satisfying to our impatient hearts, but the victories are had all the same. Don't lose faith.

Enfire Photography wrote:
edit: laughter is good for the soul. i stole this off the I loled thread

Okay, I had to laugh.

Star Child wrote:

Okay, I had to laugh.

I use the thread frequently when I'm feeling depressed, hopeless, and all those other dirty feelings that plague us

Jules NYC wrote:

I'm so sorry.

I wish I had a 100Gs to give you.
I don't have any answers, but I have this flower:

You are a beautiful flower Jules. You are a rare rose of singular beauty.

Moudy Fayed wrote:
Just wondering, what happens to be people who have been either raped or abused and don't go to talk to someone about it? Or get help for that matter?

i


i can tell you from personal experience i withdrew myself away from the world. i cared for my kids but trusted no one. it was hard.still fighting with low self esteem but i just moved from wisconsin to vegas. fresh start. not everyone can pull thru it. since ive been thru both i try and help others as well pull thru it...

Tim Little Photography wrote:

You are a beautiful flower Jules. You are a rare rose of singular beauty.

For you to say kind words like that when you're down, really says something about your character.

You have such a big heart Tim.
Thank you so very much.

Faith EnFire wrote:
I'm thirty.
Woke up excited and happy to be alive. I've made it this far. wonder what the rest of life will bring. it's been an interesting 30 years.
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and it appears that I get snow for my birthday too. yay

Happy Birthday!

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Hi everyone! Gonna do something I never though I would ever do on Wednesday. I'm gonna get a one hour reading from a clairvoyant. For over 20 years I worked in Radio programming so I know lots of people in the industry. This clairvoyant and energy healer does lots of radio and hosted a show that one of my stations carried a long time ago. She has written several books and seems to be well regarded. A friend of mine at an L.A. station turns out to be a friend of hers. One day I happened to call my friend while they were together. My friend said something like, sorry I had to take the call, my friend Tim is sick. Reportedly Mary Ellen, the reader said, "He was injured badly as a child and is still trapped in it. K.C. (my friend) have him contact me for a free reading."

What do y'all think of these kind of psychic things? I think most are a scam based on a cold reading. But how would she know I was blown up when I was young? It should be interesting. It's Wednesday at my Noon. I'll let y'all know what happens.

Love and kisses
Tim

Don't talk or say anything.
Let them talk.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IjPsnfysrp8

Listen.

Jules NYC wrote:

Don't talk or say anything.
Let them talk.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IjPsnfysrp8

Listen.

That's my plan Jules. I don't believe in this stuff but I have to admit having a curiosity about such things. I know how cold reading work. "I see a J initial, is there a John or Joe..." That crap is meaningless. I am just going to say that I am at a crossroads and needs guidance and how my past affects my future. That's it. No specifics. I expect her to know I was blown up or at least injured. I expect her to know about the physical pain I deal with everyday. I expect her to blow me away or its worthless. I'm going to record the audio. It's Wednesday night. I'll post afterwards!

Tim Little Photography wrote:

That's my plan Jules. I don't believe in this stuff but I have to admit having a curiosity about such things. I know how cold reading work. "I see a J initial, is there a John or Joe..." That crap is meaningless. I am just going to say that I am at a crossroads and needs guidance and how my past affects my future. That's it. No specifics. I expect her to know I was blown up or at least injured. I expect her to know about the physical pain I deal with everyday. I expect her to blow me away or its worthless. I'm going to record the audio. It's Wednesday night. I'll post afterwards!

How interesting:)
Take as it is. 

As curious as I am about the audio, ask yourself if it's a good idea to post that kind of thing to the www.

A private energy reading bounced around to the world?
It's your deal, just thought I'd mention it.