Faith EnFire wrote:
morning
I hope everyone is doing good today
I'm struggling, it just feels like I'm always fighting for a little peace and, I'm mentally exhausted.
I know i'll be alright, the bf is being really supportive and I really appreciate it. but I don't know if I can muster enough energy to show appreciation
smiling is tiring

hi winnie

Hang in there today

E P O N A wrote:

Hang in there today

Faith EnFire wrote:

thanks,

your avatar is cool

Thanks. I'm very proud of it. I think it's my best yet

Having coffee now. Mad at the cats :x

E P O N A wrote:

Thanks. I'm very proud of it. I think it's my best yet

Having coffee now. Mad at the cats :x

when you told me about the cats yesterday

Faith EnFire wrote:

when you told me about the cats yesterday

LOL!!!

I was so mad at her....omg. I didn't talk to her for the rest of the day!
Right now, shes snuggling all over me. I forgiver her.

E P O N A wrote:

LOL!!!

I was so mad at her....omg. I didn't talk to her for the rest of the day!
Right now, shes snuggling all over me. I forgiver her.

thats good.

naughty kitties

E P O N A wrote:

LOL!!!

I was so mad at her....omg. I didn't talk to her for the rest of the day!
Right now, shes snuggling all over me. I forgiver her.

My two have been alternating attacking me for lovin's and attention. 

I'm trying not to stress over issues as of late, but it's really, really tough. Still I'm engaging the enemy in battle so I guess that's good.

Faith EnFire wrote:

thats good.

naughty kitties

Indeed. I cam downstairs to my laptop table knocked over. *facepalm*
Elliot and Olivia are always making trouble together. Rosie is my angel.


Rosie and Olivia compete for my attention though :x

E P O N A wrote:

Indeed. I cam downstairs to my laptop table knocked over. *facepalm*
Elliot and Olivia are always making trouble together. Rosie is my angel.


Rosie and Olivia compete for my attention though :x

mischief by chwalker01, on Flickr

Faith EnFire wrote:


mischief by chwalker01, on Flickr

Oh man did I need this this morning. Oh manohmanohman.

Faith EnFire wrote:
good morning

I've fallen off the motivation wagon

I need to exercise. I just hate it. I'd rather be sitting. it doesn't matter if it's something I enjoy doing or at the gym. grrrr.
but I am a creature of habit. so once i make it a habit. I think it will be ok. but how?

I used to be in the same boat.
When my physical limitations allow I do what I can.
When I started to see results and feel better, that was my motivation. There still are days where I'm like "nooo I dun wunna"

E P O N A wrote:
Today feels a lot like Monday did. :C

look at lolcats? it cheered me up yesterday. I've been a total mess for nearly a week. bf isn't sure what to do because I've not been this down for a long time

*superhug*

Faith EnFire wrote:



look at lolcats? it cheered me up yesterday. I've been a total mess for nearly a week. bf isn't sure what to do because I've not been this down for a long time

*superhug*

I'm actuallybrowsing for a horse.
There's a lot that needs to get done before we buy, and this is a happy distraction.
I *almost* even want to go as far as trying to find meet-up groups for horse lovers.

E P O N A wrote:

I'm actuallybrowsing for a horse.
There's a lot that needs to get done before we buy, and this is a happy distraction.
I *almost* even want to go as far as trying to find meet-up groups for horse lovers.

oh jealous that that is even a consideration. I love horses

E P O N A wrote:

I'm actuallybrowsing for a horse.
There's a lot that needs to get done before we buy, and this is a happy distraction.
I *almost* even want to go as far as trying to find meet-up groups for horse lovers.

have you considered horse photography?

Faith EnFire wrote:

oh jealous that that is even a consideration. I love horses

Horses are my favourite thing in the whole wide world.

Star Child wrote:

have you considered horse photography?

Yes, actually. Recently!

Star Child wrote:
I'm screaming this today. I need it to be loud enough so that I can hear it. I need the reminder.
http://kayelless.net/blog/2009/09/12/i-am-somebody/

That's a good one. I need to be reminded too.

E P O N A wrote:

That's a good one. I need to be reminded too.

There was a period of time when I would stare at myself in the mirror, maintaining eye-contact, and repeat "My name is Guy Smith and I can handle anything" over and over again until I believed it.  Over time, the belief lasted longer and longer.  Basically I stared myself down and forced myself to live up to my own ideal self.

E P O N A wrote:
Horses are my favourite thing in the whole wide world.

dogs, then horses for me

oh and bacon

Mz Nova wrote:
I think I'm going to join in here. I've been so depressed lately and am starting a cycle of isolation. Not a good sign. I just deleted a good portion of people from my facebook, a bunch of people from my phone. Now im basically down to a few people who kinda wrote to me in the last year (which is saddeningly few) and family. 

I need to get in to get a mental health assesment...im tired of this depression, its just holding me back. img going on a walk now, hopefully that will make me feel a bit better.

welcome
hope the walk helps you feel better.






kevin-good post. thanks for posting it here

Gabrielle Heather wrote:
desperation

*superhug* for you too


I need to create a superhug picture...hmm

Lawrence Guy wrote:

There was a period of time when I would stare at myself in the mirror, maintaining eye-contact, and repeat "My name is Guy Smith and I can handle anything" over and over again until I believed it.  Over time, the belief lasted longer and longer.  Basically I stared myself down and forced myself to live up to my own ideal self.

I try doing that. I feel so silly. :C

Mz Nova wrote:
I think I'm going to join in here. I've been so depressed lately and am starting a cycle of isolation. Not a good sign. I just deleted a good portion of people from my facebook, a bunch of people from my phone. Now im basically down to a few people who kinda wrote to me in the last year (which is saddeningly few) and family. 

I need to get in to get a mental health assesment...im tired of this depression, its just holding me back. img going on a walk now, hopefully that will make me feel a bit better.

Hello

I hope your walk has made you feel better.

Faith EnFire wrote:
*superhug* for you too


I need to create a superhug picture...hmm

needed.... although at these times I tend to be alone and not want touch. I know I need it.

E P O N A wrote:

I try doing that. I feel so silly. :C

Just don't let the gremlins see you and you'll be fine

Mz Nova wrote:
I think I'm going to join in here. I've been so depressed lately and am starting a cycle of isolation. Not a good sign. I just deleted a good portion of people from my facebook, a bunch of people from my phone. Now im basically down to a few people who kinda wrote to me in the last year (which is saddeningly few) and family. 

I need to get in to get a mental health assesment...im tired of this depression, its just holding me back. img going on a walk now, hopefully that will make me feel a bit better.

Glad you're here. 

I've gone through the delete thing too.  I looked through and if I hadn't talked to them in two years, they were gone.  I also deleted a lot of people who only spoke to me when they needed something from me.  Cleaned up my phone quite a bit, and dropped my number of facebook friends by a ton.  It was kinda sad to see it quantified like that. 

Hope you feel  better.  We're here if you need to talk.

Gabrielle Heather wrote:
desperation

Sent you a PM

Star Child wrote:
Earlier today (yesterday) I was really struggling. Then I finally got the chance for some quiet meditation and prayer. After that I got out of the house for a trip to the drive-thru and grocery store. That was very, very helpful. I'm doing better, now.

I hear wonderful things about meditation. I really should try it.

Faith EnFire wrote:
my goal today is not to get mad at work

You can do it. Just think of my little Olivia. You can't get mad at that face!

E P O N A wrote:

You can do it. Just think of my little Olivia. You can't get mad at that face!

I wish her little face was enough. but this place is going to give me gray hair