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Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Jun 14 12 07:30 pm Link
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Reason: other Comments: Anonymity request of quoted poster. Jun 14 12 07:46 pm Link I swear the way this site is one mega malfunction really makes me want to give up and end it (Yes this is kinda a joke,and yes this site has an uncanny way of screwing up when I'm desperately trying to set up a last second shoot and have to go through preliminary PMs,check ports,weed out the ones I don't want...) Jun 14 12 07:54 pm Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Jun 14 12 07:59 pm Link Chris Rifkin wrote: Hi Chris! I'm sorry you are getting frustrated. I think there's been a lot of that lately and I don't have a clue what can be done about it. I'm still trying to get where I can walk unaided so I haven't had the pleasure of a shoot in a long time. I certainly hope that when I can the process of finding just the right model works properly. Let me know if I can help! Take care my friend! Jun 14 12 08:03 pm Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Bump! Morning, everyone. Hope all is well and spirits are high! Jun 15 12 08:03 am Link Just tried to post here I go again Its been awhile since ave been on here I suffer from depression this week has been stressful and ave been in and out of anxiety moving out and moving in twice and taking a huge hit to my self esteem these past few days I feel worthless like another wannabee am not thinking healthy thoughts Jun 16 12 08:51 am Link meh..sucks when the best part of the weekend you look foward to is going to sleep Jun 16 12 05:12 pm Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Jun 16 12 05:21 pm Link Phane wrote: Hi Phane! I'm sorry you are dealing with the depression. There was a period when I stayed offline recently as I was so deep in my depression I couldn't operate the computer. Jun 16 12 05:24 pm Link Chris Rifkin wrote: Hi Chris, I know you deal with a lot of depression. You know my whole story so I feel like we both know what the other is dealing with sometimes. My therapist has been doing something with me for the past few weeks that has been really helpful. Maybe you will get some benefit from it as well. It does require a little thousand and a pad and pen. Jun 16 12 05:33 pm Link My triggers are unfortunately things in everyday life that remind me how lonely I am,whether it be on FB,on TV,online,or when I'm all alone wandering a mall or getting some sushi,seeing couples in love,watching people find love and wondering why the fuck can't I ever be in the right place at the right time for this to happen.Then getting another bitchslap of reality that I'm just a piece of shit loser trucker no matter how attractive I am and how physicly in shape I am or financially secure I am when I walk into a truck stop to refuel,and see "my people",see what truckers generally have to settle for if they want any woman in their life(to the person who said that many truckers are married,go out to a truck stop and watch for about an hour,and see what they are married to,maybe it workds for these guys because they have conditioned themselves over the years to that kind of woman but it is impossible for me to lower my standards in any way and be happy,and I can guarentee most are not that happy at all,they are just "content"). Jun 17 12 08:04 am Link Some days come upon us and we are numb to them. The heat from our struggles is too suffocating. Still each day does bring with it new opportunities to fight back, overcome, win battles and reclaim our lives... even when we're too weary to look for them. One phrase that I refuse to accept is "I can't." Yeah, I've had many, many times when I don't feel like it, but even then I don't accept it. On those days, I may not find enough strength to flex, but in my heart, at the core of my soul.. I hold out. I hold on. Yesterday, I was struggling badly. Then I was attacked with that phrase and I responded with "Yes I can." I'm not going to tell you it was an easy walk, but my day ended with some pretty good WIN's. Jun 18 12 08:12 am Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Jun 18 12 08:23 am Link
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Reason: other Comments: Anonymity request of quoted poster. Jun 19 12 09:22 am Link Jun 19 12 12:22 pm Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Jun 19 12 12:37 pm Link Jun 19 12 12:46 pm Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Jun 19 12 03:13 pm Link Hi Everyone. I seem to have had an event occur during a period when I was having what I call a "PTSD" moment. To explain the best I can. Due to some emotional triggers, and me not having $20 dollars to my name to buy some medicine, My Post Traumatic Stress Disorder didn't get the normal suppression it gets. So, I went off in a safe but emotionally violent manner. This all occurred without me having any memory of it. It's called a dissociative state where I have no knowledge of what I am doing. I don't even know if I am still in the "D" State. If I rip someone to shreads online for something that offends me then most likely I am in a sense "out of my mind" In the case of the S&V thread I knew it was a safe place and I know I wrote some stuff there. I'm afraid to read it. From the Private messages I have It appears I became hyper honest. Anyway. I am safe. Don't worry about me trying to hurt anyone or myself. If I can ever get the money to get my meds I will be totally safe. But that ain't gonna happen unless bucks fall out of the sky and into my lap. If I scared anyone I'm sorry. Now you know what my life is like and I hope you see why I try to be there for others in their pain. Love to you all. Really, I love you all! I hate injustice when people attack and laugh at others because they are different. I'm very different. So I tend to be protective when I can. Jun 19 12 03:39 pm Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Jun 19 12 03:41 pm Link
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Reason: other Comments: Anonymity request of quoted poster. Jun 20 12 08:27 am Link Tim Little Photography wrote: In a way you illustrated to many what I go through when my lonliness is triggered by something and the absolute pain I feel for not feeling love or experiencing this feeling since my first girlfriend passed away,and the utter helplessness I feel knowing that there is no one even close to my radar that could fufill this,and the absolute hurt that I want to experience this now,the hurt when I see fb status' of people doing activities I missed out on in my younger years that I will never in all likelyhood experience ... Jun 20 12 08:40 am Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Jun 20 12 10:34 am Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Bump. Jun 21 12 08:30 am Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Jun 22 12 08:21 am Link Chris Rifkin wrote: This is the issue you need to work on to change everything. Jun 22 12 08:27 am Link
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Reason: other Comments: Anonymity request of quoted poster. Jun 24 12 06:57 pm Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Jun 26 12 08:59 am Link Sorry to have been away y'all. I've been in the hospital and just got out a few minutes ago. I hope everyone is doing well. I'm much better! Jun 26 12 12:16 pm Link Tim Little Photography wrote: Hi Tim, Jun 26 12 05:07 pm Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Jun 27 12 01:19 pm Link Model Posts: 576 Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica Bump. Jun 29 12 08:46 am Link Once again many of us are facing another day of dangerous heat. Do what you need to protect yourself and others. Remember, the effects of prolonged heat exposure add up. "Symptoms of heat exhaustion include profuse sweating, weakness, nausea, vomiting, headache, lightheadedness, and muscle cramps. Heat exhaustion can progress to heat stroke when the body's temperature regulation fails. The affected individual becomes confused, lethargic and may have a seizure, the skin stops sweating and the body temperature may exceed 106 F (41 C ). This is a life-threatening condition and emergency medical attention is needed immediately. Treatment for heat exhaustion includes recognizing the symptoms, stopping the activity, and moving to a cooler environment. Rehydration with water or a sports drink is the cornerstone of treatment for heat exhaustion. If nausea or vomiting prevents the affected individual from drinking enough water, intravenous fluids may be required." My AC is broken so I'm still riding it out all of y'all in the same boat. Cool, safe places you can go include indoor shopping malls and libraries. I'm lucky, I live in a high rise with a beautiful lobby downstairs. Stay cool everyone! I love you all. Tim Jul 01 12 07:21 am Link Tim Little Photography wrote: Were you affected by that storm on the east coast? Jul 01 12 07:46 am Link C Nox wrote: Bump Jul 01 12 07:46 am Link Star Child wrote: Hi Star! Not in a bad way at all. In my area we got a nice windy lightening storm and some much needed rain. It's been very dry in Delaware and the farmers needed it. Jul 01 12 08:04 am Link Tim Little Photography wrote: Yayness! Jul 01 12 08:19 am Link Tim Little Photography wrote: My AC is broken,and because my home is going to be reposessed in a few months(the final anvil that my ex caused on me to me to have dropped on my head then what I have to do to protect myself from the extreme debt that I will have that can be collected on)I am in the same boat.I got a room here in Sarasota as I have 2 shoots this weekend,and I have slept in my truck when I have been home(kinda like I will be doing for a year or so until my credit clears up) Jul 01 12 09:00 am Link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lu9Ycq64Gy4 30 years later this song hits me so hard,this litterally was me in the video escaping my world of hell,right down to the exact video game I would spend 3 to 4 hours on with one quarter.. 30 years later this is still me Jul 01 12 09:02 am Link |