im still trying to figure this thing out. help would be greatly apreciated

The first thing to do is forget your check book the next time you talk to Barbizon.  Consider removing your reference to it--many people serious about modeling, photographing models, etc. will judge you negatively for associating with them.  It makes you look like a sucker.

The second thing to do is read this website.  All of it.  www.newmodels.com

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