Inside of me,who was once broke into pieces;
have sad eyes that won't seem faded later.
The inner self of me,inside,has a fear,
of what inside of me,holds so dear.
Far from reality,but always in dream;
I think others,they don't FEEL ME nor hear it for my inner feelings;
Of what my dreams to bring it into my reality.
I don't know who I am but I pretend I do
Maybe I'll find myself;
& now I've found myself,
who knows the inner self of me,who knows who i can be,
Who tries to get up,
who wants to face,embraced,appreciate & cherish my wills,talents,gifts from what god have created my life,
with whatever journey god planned it;
& telling myself that i'm great & someday I'll agree
I someday will learn to ♥ me,& so
I set myself up with strong hope,great strength,cool confident & pure mentality.
Inside of me,who knows my weaknesses,
Who knows my faults,
& cherish my gifts.
I know I need to ♥ myself,
to live up to my potential;
Inside of me,who does really fight for what i wants.
Bleak images of a soul in torment
Or so i imagined.
Then i began to consider what might remain of a 'soul' or a 'self'.
My inner self is now a sleeper of stone.
My nickname doesn't mean nothing.
Ayako,in a Japanese form means a child of hope.
I'm versatile.I'm a lady in disguise.
I'm gonna act whats me
I'm gonna dress whats me
Life is for my own way
To live my own way
Out by my own Out
To be free
Out with my mind
They just can't see
If you don't like me for who i am
Then you don't like me for who i am
But all you gonna get
Is Who I Am.

My goals in this site,is to further my talents,wills n experience in the modeling industry.
My style is versatile.
My personalities,such varieties.
I'm more to my subcultures & philosophy.
I ♥ Japanese fashion/high end fashion.I ♥ mental disorder.I ♥ drugs.
I'm a musician.Have bands & create musics to our feels.
I'm my own designer.Creating my own clothes wear,room decor,my looks & such.
I'm crazy over America's Next Top Model.Would wish to be part of it but i know they couldn't accept me,as for my height,so i think in this site,i could do something.
I express myself through writing poetries,drawing,composing musics & model for my own pictures throughout whats about my life i'm going through & what i feel & think.

I appreciate to those whom at least,spend their time reading about me.
Bless you all,Ayako Nadxxy

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